Depressing Poem

Do you ever have that one person who has been in your life that you've had issues with, that they hurt you so deeply that you still ache when someone or something touches on those emotional scars... like what they did, when they hurt you so much, it was like they killed off a part of you in the process... yet you often find yourself wondering about them? Thinking of them?

I wonder why we DO that... Anyway, it makes me furious. I don't WANT to do that, but it happens.

Sometimes, I don't know which way is up, which way is down.
I often find myself spinning around and around.
Not from happiness, though... Not for a dance,
And not in a way you could see at a glance.
My emotions are down, and I start to feel numb.
People start making me feel like I'm dumb.
So what if I don't feel like I want to play?
Just leave me alone. Go away. I'll be okay.
But then the DO leave, and I feel like they don't care.
I hide behind my makeup, my fake smile, and my hair.
But it's alright. I'll live. Let it go...
It's only going to take about a month or so...
Some of you probably can relate to what I share.
Some of you have probably already been there.
If you read this, then great! I thank you with all my heart.
But now I'm going to mope around, so I must depart.

Ciao...

current mood:  crappy
current music: Missing - Evanescence