Good Night

Well, just as there will be accomplishments made, there will be setbacks, as well... I didn't get anything done but some laundry today. I meant to do dishes, but on the days I work, I just feel so exhausted. It's not like I have a hard job. I work at a hotel on the midnight shift. It's just the fact that the schedule is messing with me as I'm getting older. I could deal with it when I was younger, or even five years ago, but I'm getting closer to 30 these days, and working midnights makes me exhausted. Plus, just being here at work takes time away from all of the things I want to get done at home.

I envy Adam, getting to stay at home all the time, even though he takes it for granted. He'd rather watch TV, be online, or sleep. I think about all the things I could get done, like the cleaning, my crafts, making homemade foods, the cleaning, making repairs to things that got broke over the years, little side projects like getting my digital photos printed off and put in albums, making photo books, organizing my filing cabinets, oh, and did I mention the cleaning?

Anyway, I didn't get the dishes done. There's a lot of dishes to do because Adam thinks that putting them in the dishwasher is just fine and dandy, even with the cloudy white film that gets all over them when he's done. It's not just a light film, either. It's heavy can't-see-through-it cloudiness. So now I have to take over with the dishes and pre-wash them in the dishwasher, and wash them again in the sink so they sparkle and shine like I want them. I'd be so embarrassed if anyone saw the dishes after he got through with them... who would want to eat off of them? And what is that nasty stuff anyway? I'm sure it can't be good for you.

Me and Tric didn't get the pull-taffy made, either. I had the ingredients, but then I realized that I don't have a candy thermometer. Kind of hard to determine the temp without one, and I know next to nothing about making candy, so it's not like I could wing it... I can't wait to get paid so I can pick one up, though :-D And I especially can't wait to get groceries again so I can try making butter and mozzarella cheese.

Good Morning!

If I had chickens of my own, they would probably be waking me up right about now... Whether that's a good thing or not, I'd still like it. I'd love to get up, feed and water the animals, milk the cow, gather the eggs, and then cook breakfast for the family. In my head, I always have this picture-perfect scene of how I'd love my life to be. I'm not naive, though. I know it doesn't always happen that way, and I AM happy with my life at the moment. I just wish I could do more with it, that's all.

Well I'm excited to try making my own mozzarella cheese and my own butter the next time we get groceries, but for now, I'll settle with making my own pull taffy. I think Tricity and I are going to try and make some today. If it turns out good, we'll add colors next time, and fancy it up. Who knows? It might make good gifts for the kids during holidays!

Maybe I can get some more work done around the house today, too. I wish I didn't have to work so much. I'd LOVE to be a stay at home mom who holds down the fort and takes care of her family. I still have tons of laundry and dishes to get done, and when I get a chance, I need to clean the carpet again. It seems like every time it gets cleaned, someone spills something on it the very next day... I'd also like to get my pretty shower curtain hung up, that I've been trying to do for about a year. lol

Mega Garden Wishlist

If I could plant ANYTHING I wanted in a garden, be it plant, tree, or bush (as far as food goes), and actually be able to GROW all of these things? These are the things I would have:

broccoli
brussel sprouts
cabbage
red cabbage
carrots
cauliflower
celery
cherry tomatoes
cucumbers
green beans
bell peppers
iceberg lettuce
romaine lettuce
onion
garlic
peas
pumpkins
potatoes
radishes
spinach
squash
sweet corn
tomatoes
zucchini
apples
pears
peaches
plums
cherries
blackberries
raspberries
strawberries
gooseberries
blueberries
grapes
watermelons
cantaloupes
oranges
kiwis
bananas
mangoes
pineapples

Realistically, I'd probably only be able to plant these things:

cherry tomatoes
cucumbers
green beans
bell peppers
onions
peas
potatoes
pumpkins
squash
sweet corn
tomatoes
zucchini
apples
pears
peaches
blackberries
raspberries
strawberries
gooseberries
blueberries
cherries
grapes
watermelons
cantaloupes

Stuff I Wish Would Happen!

This is something I shared with my friends on Facebook, and I wanted to post it here, too, because it's the biggest part of my hopes and dreams. When I was growing up, my biggest dream was to be on Broadway, but as I got older, wiser, and started having a family, those dreamed changed to this...

Me and Adam get to talking sometimes, about what we wish we could do if things worked out right for us... The biggest thing is we would LOVE to have a place of our own. Either own it outright, or rent to own it, or whatever... as long as we knew it was going to be ours, and we could fix it up the way we wanted, add onto it if we wanted, paint it however we wanted, plant whatever we wanted... It would be so nice to have a place to call our own... That's our BIGGEST dream.

And then once we had that place, we talked about getting a cow and a pig every year, and raising it ourselves, and having it slaughtered at the end of the year so we had our own fresh meat. It was also be great to have chickens and quails, so we had our own eggs, and fresh chickens when they got older... and some ducks and geese. Maybe a goat just for the hell of it... lol We'd have a dog or two outside. I'd have to have a few cats, of course, but no pets inside... lol We'd have some rabbits...

I'd also love to have a bunch of fruit trees like his grandpa had. All different kinds. Peaches, pears, apples, a cherry tree, maybe plums? And I would plant all kinds of berries. Blackberries, blueberries, raspberries, grapes, and strawberries. We'd have a garden like his grandpa had, too. And along the house, I'd plant a rainbow of flowers so I could cut some and always have fresh flowers in the house and me and Tricity could do some crafts with the dried leaves when the flowers wilted, but there would still be plenty to make the landscape beautiful.

We wouldn't have any neighbors that were too close to get on our nerves, and I wouldn't have to worry about neighborhood brats playing on all of her outside toys. We'd have plenty of shade so that we could sit out in the summertime with some friends or family, and feel the cool breeze as we had dinner outside. I'd have lots of different kinds of bird feeders, bird houses, and windchimes that made lots of different sounds. I could do my wood carving and other kinds of crafts outside. It would be our own little country home tucked away in it's own cozy spot...

Every time I went to his grandpa's old house, I felt like this, and I knew that it would be lovely to have a place like that some day. If it was a place that we owned, we would truly love it and care for it. Now, if only there was a way we could ever get it... That would be so nice. It's one of the biggest things I wish for. That, and winning the powerball jackpot. lol

The Swingset and the Flower Bed

It's officially spring, and the weather is better than anyone could ask for. When it's not raining, we've been going outside to play. Thank goodness we spent some income tax money on things for outside! Adam and his father have been working on the new swingset, and they are nearly done with it. I think all that's left is the slide, the canopy, and the wood around the bottom playhouse area.

Tricity just LOVES it. Especially the tower, and the glider. She's still iffy about the swings and the monkey bars, though. She was used to the baby swing on her old swingset, and we don't have it anymore, because she's old enough now to learn how to use the big swing. We took the old swingset to my mom's house because my brother and his family live there, and they have three kids of their own who could use it. I think this new swingset was well worth what we paid, though. When it's done, our landlord asked us to put mulch underneath it.

We also have a sandbox to clean out and refill. The old sand has gotten pretty dirty with bits of leaves and sticks, and we never really did like the blue sand that stains your skin... It was a cool idea at first, but when we realized we ended up looking like smurfs after playing with Tricity in her sandbox, then we realized we should have went with the brown sand after all... When we get the sandbox cleaned out, and the mulch put down, I'll take a new picture to show everyone.

Something else we had gotten for income tax was a bouncy house for Tric. It was either that, or a trampoline, and we figured- she's still too little for something that dangerous, and the the bouncy house can be taken anywhere. Plus, it was cheaper. lol It's so easy to set up and take down that we can't wait to use it for her birthday party!

The other day, Adam and Tricity played for a while outside while I dug up some dirt at the front of our trailer beneath our kitchen windows, and planted some flowers. I hope they grow! I've had bad experiences with growing flowers in the past. I can't ever seem to grow anything on my own... but maybe this time I did it right? *crosses fingers* We've lived in our trailer for nearly a year now. I didn't put any flowers up last year because it was too late in the season for my taste, so I waited until this year. I put up some little fencing to boarder it so the mowing man won't chop them down like he did the irises that were on the side of the trailer when we moved in last year... I took a picture of it to show the 'before' picture, and when/if the flowers grow, I'll take another to show how pretty it is. (or at least how pretty it can be with a mobile home... lol)

While I was working on sifting the rocks out of the dirt (because there were a LOT of rocks) Adam decided to go visit his dad, and he took Tricity with him. When I got done, I called him to come back home so Tricity could help me plant the bulbs for the flowers. While I waited for them to get there, I decided to look for four leaf clovers, and pretty much as soon as I looked down, right there next to me, I found a little one! Here's my dirty hand and the clover I found.

That has only happened to me once before. One time, I was zoning out while my brother was barbecuing. He asked me "What are you looking at?" and when I realized I was staring at the ground, I happened to be staring right at a four leaf clover, and that's what I told him. "A four leaf clover!" He didn't believe me, so I bent over and picked it. I think when things like that happen to you, then you know your life is on the right track :-)

Anyway, I think that's enough blogging for today. There's so much to talk about, and every day is a chance to say what I want to say, so why do it all at once? :-D

When a Man Cleans the House

He loves me! He actually cleaned the living room and kitchen all by himself! lol

Usually it's more like this:

All joking aside, though... I think he stopped helping clean because I usually nitpick so much about what I want thrown away or not, how good he scrubs the dishes or not... I can't help that I do it better and I'm just trying to let him know that it can be done better if he's going to do it at all, right? Better to tell him so he learns instead of me having to redo everything, even though the sentiment is sweet... But whatever. I'm pleased with the work he did today. Thanks dear! ♥

Almost There!

We ALMOST have everything moved to the new place! lol Now we just have to unpack and get everything straightened up. There's so much to do but the place is looking great and it already feels like home. I think we've adjusted well, even Tricity. Now our old home is considered 'grandma's house'. I think I'm doing alright, considering this is a big change for me as well, having always lived with my Mom. It's so much fun taking care of my family though, cooking dinner, decorating how I want to. The holidays are going to be a blast!

I've been trying to upload more pics and get some stuff done here on the computer, too, now that I don't have wedding crafts to get done... and I can't really do my crafts for my store until I get the supplies and stuff unpacked.

I can't believe Tricity's birthday is coming up so fast! We can't afford a party for her this year, but we'll probably still go out and celebrate. At least she has friends with birthday parties that she can go to... Next year should be a lot better for us. Just like with Mayfest, she could only go on four rides, but next year we'll get her a bracelet and then she can ride all she wants all evening long.

When I get things set up and cleaned up, I'll post pictures of the new place, and I'll try to get more photos up. It's just hard to find the time to do anything with all that has been going on.

Geocities is Shutting Down?!

Geocities is shutting down?! I'm TOTALLY bummed! Anyone else have websites there that are going to be affected by this? Man, this sucks! I was so proud of my websites, too. Here's a screenshot from my main (and by main, I mean more popular) page: FOF: Fans of Figwit

Later notes on December of 2018 about this blog entry: Little did we know Figwit was considered a meme back then! Only meme wasn't really a word anybody used. And geocities may have wiped out their webpage services, but as of this date, you can actually find the old page here:
http://www.geocities.ws/figwit_x/
Sadly, I have not yet found or recovered any of my other webpages though...

We're Going Through Changes

Well life is kind of... bad... for the moment. A lot of crappity-crap stuff has been happening, and every time I think things might start looking up, they only get worse. One can only keep hope for so long because hope is diminished, you know. Let's just hope this bad streak is near the end before depression sinks in...

Everything happens for a reason, but it seems like it's usually the bad things that happen in order for good things to happen. Things going on with my mom, my brother, my job, money, everything.

My mom's health isn't the best. It's hard for her to get well and stay that way. I worry that she may have something seriously wrong with her, and that's on my mind a lot. What if it's cancer? It's bad enough that something has to be wrong, but if it's that? I don't know what we would do...

My brother has been in trouble. But more than that, he's been drifting away from the family. Sure we all still live together, but he's not as close to us any more. He's always stuck up his girlfriend's ass, and she's at our house ALL of the TIME! It would be one thing if she just lived there and paid some money to stay with us like my boyfriend does, but she lives there, eats, sleeps, uses resources, and doesn't pay a single cent. She's a freeloader... Of course this causes more problems between my brother and us, and he feels like we're rejecting him because of his girlfriend, and that probably makes him feel like he's being pushed away, but it's not like that. We just don't see it as being fair, but he's a stubborn ass who can't SEE that.

As for my job, I lost it. I was making $9.00 an hour at the factory, and they terminated my employment because I had pictures of my family and stuff on the computer. I was not TOLD I couldn't have these pictures on the computer, and I assumed it was alright because everybody else had personal pictures on the computers, and one guy's files even had porn! The only warning I got at work was a popup that came up and said that we couldn't view anything with porn, violence, or weapons. Nothing about having pictures on the computer. The whole time my supervisors came into the office, they never said a single word about my baby's pictures being up on my screen as my wallpaper. Now they're trying to hassle me because I filed for unemployment and they're trying to appeal it. It's bad enough we're scraping by on the skin of our teeth, but then I lost my job and now they're trying to screw me over like that? Things are just so rough...

At least I got a different job now. A better job, but for MUCH less pay. I'm working the front desk at one of the hotels here in town, and it's only $6.50 an hour for four days a week, but it's a great job so far. Let's just hope this job stays good...

I keep buying powerball tickets, thinking that maybe I'll hit it big and suddenly have all my problems taken care of, but even that's looking dreadful. Let's face it... People like me don't win lotteries...

So that's the news for now. The baby is good. She's had a fever, but her 3rd tooth cut through. She quit minding me when I was trying to teach her 'no', and she would rather have grandma than me, but at least she's mine, and that's what matters most. She's my light. She's so funny and crazy. And SO SMART! Adam is fine. We argue about a lot of things, but it's common stuff for a couple to argue about. He still wants to marry me, so there's that... lol

Catch you later.

XOXOX
Love,
~ me ~

current mood: worried

We're Going Through Changes

Well life is kind of... bad... for the moment. A lot of crappity-crap stuff has been happening, and every time I think things might start looking up, they only get worse. One can only keep hope for so long because hope becomes diminished, you know? Let's just hope this bad streak is near the end before depression sinks in...

Everything happens for a reason, but it seems like it's usually the bad things that happen in order for good things to happen. Things going on with my mom, my brother, my job, money, everything.

My mom's health isn't the best. It's hard for her to get well and stay that way. I worry that she may have something seriously wrong with her bladder, and that's on my mind a lot. What if it's cancer? It's bad enough that SOMETHING has to be wrong with it, but if it's THAT? I don't know what we would do... I'm crushed... And I feel so bad for her!

My brother has been in trouble. But more than that, he's been drifting away from the family. Sure we all still live together, but he's not as close to us any more. He's always stuck up his girlfriend's arse, and she's at our house ALL of the TIME! It would be one thing if she just lived there and paid some money to stay with us like my boyfriend does, but she lives there, eats, sleeps, uses resources, and doesn't pay a single cent. Of course this causes MORE problems between my brother and us, and he feels like we're rejecting him because of his girlfriend, and that probably makes him feel like he's being pushed away, but it's not like that. We just don't see it as being fair, but he's stubborn, and he can't SEE that.

As for my job, I lost it. I was making $9.00 an hour at the factory (TG Missouri), and they terminated my employment because I had pictures of my family and stuff on the computer. I was not TOLD I couldn't have these pictures on the computer, and I assumed it was alright because everybody else had THEIR personal pictures on the computers, and one guy's files even had porn! How awful is that? The only warning I got at work was a popup that came up and said that we couldn't view anything with porn, violence, or weapons. NOTHING about having pictures on the computer. The whole time my supervisors came into the office, they never said a single word about my baby's pictures being up on my screen as my desktop image. Now they're trying to hassle me because I filed for unemployment and they're trying to appeal it.

AND - when I was terminated, I wasn't even working in this position anymore! I was working in a completely different building (I was in the warehouse before, checking in and out boxes that left the building, and now I WAS working in building 2, packing the airbags), but this is what they TOLD me was the excuse for firing me. We all know the REAL reason was because I was asked how I liked the job so far, and I said it made my wrists hurt, trying to squeeze the airbags into the cases, and they didn't want any kind of medical issues to come up against them because of it (like worker's comp, or some kind of 'I got carpal tunnel from working at your factory, and you won't offer me insurance!' kind of problem), so they fired me under some lame excuse.

It's bad enough we're scraping by on the skin of our teeth, but then I lost my job and now they're trying to screw me over like that? Things are just so rough... It'll be okay, though. Everything happens for a reason. That job WAS too hard, and I know I'm just upset because they pay was so good! lol

At least I got a different job now. A better job, but for MUCH less pay. I work at the Best Western hotel in Perryville, working the front desk at night, and it's only $6.50 an hour for four days a week, but it's a great job so far. Let's just hope this job STAYS good... I know one of the girls, at least! Her name is Ashley, and she's pretty awesome. I worked with her before at Walmart, but I didn't know her that well back then. Just through a mutual friend. Even then, though, she always cracked me up and had me laughing. It's good to work with people you like! :-D

I keep buying Powerball tickets, thinking that maybe I'll hit it big and suddenly have all my problems taken care of, but even that's looking dreadful. Let's face it... People like me don't win lotteries... I have it all planned out, if I ever did, though! One day, I'll share my ideas! :-D

So that's the news for now. The baby is good. She's had a fever, but her 3rd tooth cut through. She quit minding me when I was trying to teach her 'no', and she would rather have grandma than me (or "Na-na, as she calls her), but at least she's mine, and that's what matters most. She's my light, and she's what keeps a smile on my face. She's so funny and crazy. And SO SMART! Adam is fine. We argue about a lot of things, but it's common stuff for a couple to argue about. He still wants to marry me, so I love him. lol

Catch you later.
XOXOX

Love,
~ me ~
Current Mood: worried
Current Music: Not Gonna Get Us by Tatu