Ah... I love the rain.
It's the only time that I will put on some shorts and a sleeveless shirt just to go outside and enjoy the feel of the rain on my skin as I meditate in it. Oh, how I could really use it right about now.
Sometimes I think that water torture method, where they drip water onto a restrained victim's forehead, wouldn't do any good with me since I love that feeling of the water hitting against me consistently.
Anyway, now I think I will go take out the trash, find me a nice comfy place to sit down and meditate, come back in and take a hot shower, feel my muscles melt away like hot butter, and reflect on life.
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
Song Review - What You Never Know
This one is by
Sarah Brightman
and it's called
What You Never Know:
Here are the lyrics:
What you never know won't hurt you.
What you never know won't lie.
What you never know won't desert you.
What you never know won't say goodbye.
What you never know won't hurt you.
What you never know won't lie.
What you never know won't desert you.
What you never know won't make you cry.
What you never know.
What you never, never, never...
What you never know.
What you never know won't hurt you.
What you never know won't lie.
What you never know won't desert you.
What you never know unless you try.
What you never know won't hurt you.
My Review:
I guess this one just really touched me and I really got attached to it, because as with anything we feel really attached to, we can relate on some level. Sometimes I think if I just push it all away, push away the people, the situations, the feelings, the interactions, all of it, that it won't get to me. I won't get too attached, and I won't get hurt when it all goes downhill. The highs are always good, but the downs are a killer. Sometimes I think it's easier just to let it be and just keep on living my life on a steady line, not daring to interact with people, not daring to veer off the road for a moment, for fear of getting hurt. Then there won't be hurt, I won't be lied to, I won't be deserted...
But the last line in the last verse says it all, doesn't it? What you never know unless you try. Maybe getting too attached won't hurt. Maybe, by some tiny thread in the universe, I'll finally have a link to something in this world that I'll never have to let go of, or have it taken from me. Maybe, if I try, I can at least for one time find that special everlasting bond, if there even is one. That one special somebody. That one special moment. That one special life-changing event that makes a person feel like their whole life really was worth something, after all.
I know, I know... I'm still young and foolish, and it's too soon to judge the quality of my life, but sometimes, I feel like it's over before it even began. I'm as happy as I could be, really. I have everything I've always wanted and more, much to my surprise. Maybe it's just all in my head, or some brain imbalance, or maybe I really am messed up in the head. It was always a joke when I acted crazy before, but you never know, right? Not if it's yourself who is affected.
I guess the point of this is... I'm happy this way. I'm glad there's not bad situations in my life. But I still don't have that one thing that keeps me from ever feeling down. In my heart, I have many spaces. Spaces for my friends, my family (they take up big chunks), my passions of the arts (many of those), but yet in the core, there's still a deep, dark pit. A cold core. Something is missing, and I just can't tell, and that bothers me. Usually I can pinpoint the problem, but there shouldn't be anything that makes me sad anymore.
What is this? I'm starting to see that the saying 'money can't buy you happiness' can be very true. I always said 'yeah right' to that, because I thought if I had everything I wanted, I couldn't be happier in my own little world of toys, gadgets, pretty, soft, shiny things, etc, etc, etc. But I'm still not happy. I guess I just need something to grab me by the shoulders, give me a hard shake, and show me what true happiness is. But there's not something that can do that, is there? Or we would all know true happiness. What is missing? Why do I feel so depressed all the time? I love my job! I love my family! I love my friends! Give me a break, already!!!
Well, crap... This turned into a rant-and-rave post, and I didn't mean it too. I just wanted to tell everyone a song they should buy or download at least. I guess that's my meditation reflection for the day? It's just all pouring out now. lol
~ Candice ~
Here are the lyrics:
What you never know won't hurt you.
What you never know won't lie.
What you never know won't desert you.
What you never know won't say goodbye.
What you never know won't hurt you.
What you never know won't lie.
What you never know won't desert you.
What you never know won't make you cry.
What you never know.
What you never, never, never...
What you never know.
What you never know won't hurt you.
What you never know won't lie.
What you never know won't desert you.
What you never know unless you try.
What you never know won't hurt you.
My Review:
I guess this one just really touched me and I really got attached to it, because as with anything we feel really attached to, we can relate on some level. Sometimes I think if I just push it all away, push away the people, the situations, the feelings, the interactions, all of it, that it won't get to me. I won't get too attached, and I won't get hurt when it all goes downhill. The highs are always good, but the downs are a killer. Sometimes I think it's easier just to let it be and just keep on living my life on a steady line, not daring to interact with people, not daring to veer off the road for a moment, for fear of getting hurt. Then there won't be hurt, I won't be lied to, I won't be deserted...
But the last line in the last verse says it all, doesn't it? What you never know unless you try. Maybe getting too attached won't hurt. Maybe, by some tiny thread in the universe, I'll finally have a link to something in this world that I'll never have to let go of, or have it taken from me. Maybe, if I try, I can at least for one time find that special everlasting bond, if there even is one. That one special somebody. That one special moment. That one special life-changing event that makes a person feel like their whole life really was worth something, after all.
I know, I know... I'm still young and foolish, and it's too soon to judge the quality of my life, but sometimes, I feel like it's over before it even began. I'm as happy as I could be, really. I have everything I've always wanted and more, much to my surprise. Maybe it's just all in my head, or some brain imbalance, or maybe I really am messed up in the head. It was always a joke when I acted crazy before, but you never know, right? Not if it's yourself who is affected.
I guess the point of this is... I'm happy this way. I'm glad there's not bad situations in my life. But I still don't have that one thing that keeps me from ever feeling down. In my heart, I have many spaces. Spaces for my friends, my family (they take up big chunks), my passions of the arts (many of those), but yet in the core, there's still a deep, dark pit. A cold core. Something is missing, and I just can't tell, and that bothers me. Usually I can pinpoint the problem, but there shouldn't be anything that makes me sad anymore.
What is this? I'm starting to see that the saying 'money can't buy you happiness' can be very true. I always said 'yeah right' to that, because I thought if I had everything I wanted, I couldn't be happier in my own little world of toys, gadgets, pretty, soft, shiny things, etc, etc, etc. But I'm still not happy. I guess I just need something to grab me by the shoulders, give me a hard shake, and show me what true happiness is. But there's not something that can do that, is there? Or we would all know true happiness. What is missing? Why do I feel so depressed all the time? I love my job! I love my family! I love my friends! Give me a break, already!!!
Well, crap... This turned into a rant-and-rave post, and I didn't mean it too. I just wanted to tell everyone a song they should buy or download at least. I guess that's my meditation reflection for the day? It's just all pouring out now. lol
~ Candice ~
Sunday, June 8, 2003
Feeling NAF
Don't think I'll be watching the Tony's tonight... I really wanted to catch it, but I checked out the nominees and I don't even really know much of the people or the shows on it except for Gypsy, Antonio Banderas, and Bernadette Peters. Plus I'm feeling pretty nasty as f tonight, so I don't feel like doing more than I need to.
I didn't get my facial thingy done last night, but I'm doing that at the moment, and letting my hair dye set in. As usual, it's red. I love red hair. I didn't even play my sims last night. Instead, I fell asleep downstairs. The night before, I fell asleep against the wall. That's usually my sleeping spot, the wall. I'm always at the computer when I'm home, so it's my fall-asleep spot.
Anyhow, the time is about up. I have to go wash this stuff out of my hair, so I'll close up the entry. I'm not going to sleep before I go to work tonight, and I'll probably have to go in early. I'm just screwing myself over by this, but... meh... We'll see how it goes. I just feel like crap lately. Hope you all are doing well though.
I didn't get my facial thingy done last night, but I'm doing that at the moment, and letting my hair dye set in. As usual, it's red. I love red hair. I didn't even play my sims last night. Instead, I fell asleep downstairs. The night before, I fell asleep against the wall. That's usually my sleeping spot, the wall. I'm always at the computer when I'm home, so it's my fall-asleep spot.
Anyhow, the time is about up. I have to go wash this stuff out of my hair, so I'll close up the entry. I'm not going to sleep before I go to work tonight, and I'll probably have to go in early. I'm just screwing myself over by this, but... meh... We'll see how it goes. I just feel like crap lately. Hope you all are doing well though.
Thursday, June 5, 2003
Happy Birthday Spankings!
*sings*
Happy Birthday to meeeeee,
Happy Birthday to meeeeee,
Happy Birthday to me-eeeee,
Happy Birthday to meeeeee!
Now... If only I can find someone to spank me. *sly grin*
current mood:
silly
Happy Birthday to meeeeee,
Happy Birthday to meeeeee,
Happy Birthday to me-eeeee,
Happy Birthday to meeeeee!
Now... If only I can find someone to spank me. *sly grin*
current mood:
silly
Wednesday, June 4, 2003
Work Friends Aren't Exactly Friend Friends
You win some, you lose some, right? Who needs close friends, anyway? *looks around dejectedly*
...Right???...
I'm just saying because I might have lost my new best friend today. She was the new second shift girl at our work for about a month, and she and the boss lady just did NOT get along with each other.
Well, I went to work last night, and Jessica (the 2nd shift/friend girl) said that she and the boss lady got into a fight yesterday, and she made her cry. Well, the boss lady is a good friend of mine. I don't kiss ass, really. I just think she's pretty cool and we get along great.
Well, this morning, I said "And I want to give you a hug. I heard about what happened last night."
To which she seemed confused and asked "What? What happened?"
So I explained, "Jessica said she made you cry."
Boss Lady: Oh, really?! *fumes*
Me: Uh... Yeah... *thinks to self - Uh-oh! Oh, damn!*
So then I told her about the jobs that Jessica is supposed to do for me for set-up and prep, since I have to do them for first shift, and they do them for her shift, and everything came out all at once. I'm so VERY tired of having to work two shifts in one just to cover for her. Yes, I think she's a great friend, but I can't be over-working myself, or I might get sick all over again, and I don't want any more scars. (That's what the shingles blisters left behind. *sniffle*)
So... I don't know what happened in between now and then, but either she got fired, or she quit, because they want me to come in early and work tonight, but I've had no sleep yet. So if Jessica gets mad at me, then I expect it. It will show that she's immature enough not to understand that there IS a difference between social relationships and working relationships. If she's a true friend, she'll still be my friend socially, just as before, when we went to go get our eyebrows waxed together. If not, though? Oh well. There's nothing I can do to change it, and I'm not expecting anything out of it except for her to be angry at me. I just had to save my own ass. I can NOT afford to lose this job.
Well, I went to work last night, and Jessica (the 2nd shift/friend girl) said that she and the boss lady got into a fight yesterday, and she made her cry. Well, the boss lady is a good friend of mine. I don't kiss ass, really. I just think she's pretty cool and we get along great.
Well, this morning, I said "And I want to give you a hug. I heard about what happened last night."
To which she seemed confused and asked "What? What happened?"
So I explained, "Jessica said she made you cry."
Boss Lady: Oh, really?! *fumes*
Me: Uh... Yeah... *thinks to self - Uh-oh! Oh, damn!*
So then I told her about the jobs that Jessica is supposed to do for me for set-up and prep, since I have to do them for first shift, and they do them for her shift, and everything came out all at once. I'm so VERY tired of having to work two shifts in one just to cover for her. Yes, I think she's a great friend, but I can't be over-working myself, or I might get sick all over again, and I don't want any more scars. (That's what the shingles blisters left behind. *sniffle*)
So... I don't know what happened in between now and then, but either she got fired, or she quit, because they want me to come in early and work tonight, but I've had no sleep yet. So if Jessica gets mad at me, then I expect it. It will show that she's immature enough not to understand that there IS a difference between social relationships and working relationships. If she's a true friend, she'll still be my friend socially, just as before, when we went to go get our eyebrows waxed together. If not, though? Oh well. There's nothing I can do to change it, and I'm not expecting anything out of it except for her to be angry at me. I just had to save my own ass. I can NOT afford to lose this job.
Differences From a Year Ago
Wow... So much has changed in a year! I looked up my journal entry from last year, about this time, June 3rd, 4th, and 5th...
Let's see... *rummages*
June 3rd 2002: I found out that Twiggy Ramirez (AKA Jeordie White) of Marilyn Manson was leaving the band. He was my most favorite member.
June 3rd 2003: Marilyn Manson still sounds good without Twiggy. I'll be seeing them for the first time in person in July when I go to Ozzfest. Though good, they may be... Twiggy is still very missed.
June 4th 2002: I'm soooooo ooooold.
June 4th 2003: I repeat: I'm soooooo ooooold! (only OLDER!!! *Aye!*)
June 5th 2002: I had said "I'm scared to death. Mom is violently ill, and there is nothing the doctors say they can do..." During this time, mom's surgery had went horribly wrong, and she suffered from many dangerous infections at this time. She had been shaking and shivering for a few days, with a high fever that wouldn't come down, and vomiting. I was so scared that day, and spent that night of my birthday with her in the hospital.
June 5th 2003: Things are much better, now. Mom still has a few problems from that damned hospital. We should have sued. Other than that, life have been pretty good. I've got me a laptop, mom has the mega-big-screen TV, and just about everything I've ever wanted, I have, besides the BIG goals, which I doubt I'll have, anyway. (Those are - To meet Bret McKenzie, to meet the Black Seeds, to get their autograph, and to be famous, especially on Broadway.)
So here is my final thought. I may be turning 21 tomorrow, and though I hate the idea of aging, getting older, and eventually dying, at least it marks another year that I've survived in this world. *hugs and kisses to you all*
current mood:
accomplished
June 3rd 2002: I found out that Twiggy Ramirez (AKA Jeordie White) of Marilyn Manson was leaving the band. He was my most favorite member.
June 3rd 2003: Marilyn Manson still sounds good without Twiggy. I'll be seeing them for the first time in person in July when I go to Ozzfest. Though good, they may be... Twiggy is still very missed.
June 4th 2002: I'm soooooo ooooold.
June 4th 2003: I repeat: I'm soooooo ooooold! (only OLDER!!! *Aye!*)
June 5th 2002: I had said "I'm scared to death. Mom is violently ill, and there is nothing the doctors say they can do..." During this time, mom's surgery had went horribly wrong, and she suffered from many dangerous infections at this time. She had been shaking and shivering for a few days, with a high fever that wouldn't come down, and vomiting. I was so scared that day, and spent that night of my birthday with her in the hospital.
June 5th 2003: Things are much better, now. Mom still has a few problems from that damned hospital. We should have sued. Other than that, life have been pretty good. I've got me a laptop, mom has the mega-big-screen TV, and just about everything I've ever wanted, I have, besides the BIG goals, which I doubt I'll have, anyway. (Those are - To meet Bret McKenzie, to meet the Black Seeds, to get their autograph, and to be famous, especially on Broadway.)
So here is my final thought. I may be turning 21 tomorrow, and though I hate the idea of aging, getting older, and eventually dying, at least it marks another year that I've survived in this world. *hugs and kisses to you all*
current mood:
accomplished
Monday, June 2, 2003
New Elrond and Arwen Sneak Peek!
It appears Lord of the Rings: Return of the King has released some new promo shots! So for all of my Pervy Elf Fanciers, and all my LOTR buddies, and those who haven't hunted down the new pics yet, here's a big spankin' photo of Elrond and Arwen! Could this describe the beauty and grace of the Elven-kind any better? *le sigh* So preciousss...
*drools over Hugo Weaving* lol X-D
*drools over Hugo Weaving* lol X-D
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
Cabaret Makeup Look
I have a new project I want to start! The goal? Make-up styles. I want to copy makeup looks (and possibly poses) of certain choice pics. I originally wanted my first one to be Emcee from Cabaret, but I just went with a Cabaret-inspired look instead. And no, my eyebrows aren't really that dark. Yes, I colored them in. I had to get the same effect as close as I could. I look like I could be a character in the show! :-D I just grouped the photos into one little strip that I think turned out to look quite classy, despite the background. Enjoy!
Sunday, May 18, 2003
Computer Geek Humor
Some good geek t-shirt slogans
(My favorite one) Windows: Just another pane in the glass.
2 + 2 = 5 for extremely large values of 2.
Computers make very fast, very accurate mistakes.
The Definition of an Upgrade: Take old bugs out, put new ones in.
C:\> Bad command or file name! Go stand in the corner.
Southern DOS: Y'all reckon? (Yep/Nope)
E Pluribus Modem
Ethernet (n): something used to catch the etherbunny
Does fuzzy logic tickle?
Who's General Failure & why's he reading my disk?
Help! I'm modeming... and I can't hang up!!!
Error: Keyboard not attached. Press F1 to continue.
Press any key to continue or any other key to quit...
Go ahead, make my data!
And now, I shall go downstairs and watch Spice World, because I hear Alan Cumming is supposed to play a part in it, and I'm totally obsessed with him right now :-D
current mood:
chipper
(My favorite one) Windows: Just another pane in the glass.
2 + 2 = 5 for extremely large values of 2.
Computers make very fast, very accurate mistakes.
The Definition of an Upgrade: Take old bugs out, put new ones in.
C:\> Bad command or file name! Go stand in the corner.
Southern DOS: Y'all reckon? (Yep/Nope)
E Pluribus Modem
Ethernet (n): something used to catch the etherbunny
Does fuzzy logic tickle?
Who's General Failure & why's he reading my disk?
Help! I'm modeming... and I can't hang up!!!
Error: Keyboard not attached. Press F1 to continue.
Press any key to continue or any other key to quit...
Go ahead, make my data!
And now, I shall go downstairs and watch Spice World, because I hear Alan Cumming is supposed to play a part in it, and I'm totally obsessed with him right now :-D
current mood:
chipper
Friday, May 16, 2003
Alan Cumming Is My New Obsession (Ooh, that sounds dirty!)
"And now presenting the Cabaret Girls! Rosie! Rosie is so called because of the color of her cheeks! Lulu! Oh, you like Lulu? Well too bad, so does Rosie!"
"Bobby! Victor! Or is it Victor! And Bobby! You know there's really only one way to tell the difference...I'll show you later!"
HA! I think I have a new interest. *feels the love* All because of RP again, of course. That's how I got obsessed with Figwit/Bret McKenzie. This time, it's Alan Cumming. Some of you new X2 fans will know him as Nightcrawler in the new X-Men movie. Come to find out, Alan is ALSO a Broadway star! He's played Emcee on Cabaret (which I can't stop listening to. Money is one of my most favorite songs from it so far).
He also played the part of Rooster on Annie.
I'm not sure what else he did so far, besides singing on Saturday Night Live, and as Floop on Spy Kids.
I love his voice. And his Scottish accent. *dreamy-eyes* And when he wears his kilt and eye liner... mmmm...
But now I'm wrapped up in Money and Wilkommen, so I'll post what I have and talk more later. Can't... concentrate... must... drool! X-D
current mood:
enthralled
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
Being a Vegan is Not For Everybody
Good news? I'm healing from my shingles.
Bad news? I can't be a vegan.
If you are new to my blog, let me recap for you - I tried to be a vegan, but because I suddenly changed my eating habits and was dealing with a lot of stress at the same time, my immunities dropped so low that I got an infection to my nervous system and broke out with the shingles virus.
I guess trying to be a vegan wasn't really meant for me, as much as I wanted to be. I've been eating meat again for about two weeks now, and I started getting un-sick. That sucks...
Not that being healthy isn't good, but it's not healthy by Candice-reasoning to eat animals, either. See how I'm kind of stuck, here? Not eating animals results in bad health for Candice. Yet, eating animals results in death for the animals. It's a lose-lose situation. Maybe I can try it again later on through the years when I'm not so stressed out, but for now, it's not for me...
Guess I have to be selfish on this one here and worry about myself. As if there would be any other way for me to be, though, right? So considering I need to be more health-conscious, I better take my shower and get to bed since I just worked a 13 hour shift.
Ciao, my lovlies.
~ me ~
Bad news? I can't be a vegan.
If you are new to my blog, let me recap for you - I tried to be a vegan, but because I suddenly changed my eating habits and was dealing with a lot of stress at the same time, my immunities dropped so low that I got an infection to my nervous system and broke out with the shingles virus.
I guess trying to be a vegan wasn't really meant for me, as much as I wanted to be. I've been eating meat again for about two weeks now, and I started getting un-sick. That sucks...
Not that being healthy isn't good, but it's not healthy by Candice-reasoning to eat animals, either. See how I'm kind of stuck, here? Not eating animals results in bad health for Candice. Yet, eating animals results in death for the animals. It's a lose-lose situation. Maybe I can try it again later on through the years when I'm not so stressed out, but for now, it's not for me...
Guess I have to be selfish on this one here and worry about myself. As if there would be any other way for me to be, though, right? So considering I need to be more health-conscious, I better take my shower and get to bed since I just worked a 13 hour shift.
Ciao, my lovlies.
~ me ~
Friday, May 9, 2003
I Feel Left Behind
It's interesting, these changes. There were four of us, best friends. We fit together so well. So much wonderful times, we had.
Candice - The 'pretty' one of the four, so they would say, but she never felt pretty enough. The Broadway Diva, the drama queen, the goth princess. The oldest, yet the youngest at heart. The romanticist who just wanted to be loved. The obsessive-compulsive.
Amber - The tough girl who just wanted to be loved. The sensible one. The artist. The one with low self-esteem. The mellow girl. The girl who knew all the trivia. The fighter.
Tahnee - The dreamer. The youngest, yet the mother of us all. The one with the well-to-do family, but the one who chose us 'lesser' people as friends. The peacemaker. The curious one.
Samantha - The logical one. The smart girl. The only one I knew who could be such a brainiac, yet such an airhead at the same time. The contemplative one. The girl who just wanted to keep her family together but whom always seemed so independent.
We were each so different in our own ways, yet we fit together so well. Check it out. Even our initials spelled out our favorite animal, CATS. But now... Now things have grown so distant between us all. To quote Rent, "How did we get here? How the hell..." What is this post about anyway, you may ask? Well, I've been reflective lately. We used to all go together so well, but now??? To quote Linkin Park, "Even though you're close to me, you're still so distant, and I can't bring you back". Now that school is out, and we've all grown up, we have all grown so distant... And this is how:
Candice - As for myself, I always had big dreams. I always wanted to move to a big city and become a great theater star, singing and acting for the pleasure of many, doing what I love for them to love. But now, I doubt I shall ever reach those stars. I'm stuck in a small town, with a pretty decent job, but I'm not doing what I love. And you know what the sad thing is? I like where I am, now. Mom and I are making it pretty well together, and I don't want anything to disrupt what we have right now. I want something so badly, but yet I'm not going to make an attempt to achieve it. How awful is that? And now I'm paranoid about my health, because all I wanted to do was try and become a vegan to make my quality of life better, and ended up accidentally giving myself a virus. So now I worry that with my immune system being so low, that I could catch something else, and that'll be the thing that kills me. All because I wanted to try and be a better, healthier person. Do you know how scared that makes me? To know that if I don't get better, I could REALLY catch something nasty, get SO sick, and die? Paranoid, maybe, but it still scares me to no end.
Amber - I found out recently that she's been getting into drinking and smoking pot. She has sunk quite low over the last year. She works constantly, and when she's not working, she's so depressed and stressed out about how much she has to work, that she turns to doing that stuff for relief. I don't know what to think of her anymore... There are other ways to get around depression, and she DOES have the right to say NO when her boss asks her to work overtime. I just don't know what to do, being so far away...
Tahnee - I admire her so much, but yet I feel so bad for her, all the same. She's in college, wanting to learn archeology so that she might be one of the diggers up on Mars one of these days. I believe she could actually do it, too. Any time she says she's going to do something, at least her dreams never fail... But yet she's so alone... I hardly see her anymore, and we were like sisters. Amber's gone off on her thing, and Samantha, too. I think she feels like we've left her. It's sad, since I felt like they've left me behind, and I'm stuck here while they change so much... I wonder if she feels the same way?
Samantha - She's taken to living with her boyfriend. When I moved away, I was so cold-hearted to her, because I was mad at how stuck-up she had become. She was tactless in telling us how much she didn't like Amber's purple hair, or my black hair with red streaks. I felt like it was a slap in the face, like she was saying she was better than us. But now she IS better than us. She's shaped up her body quite nicely, losing a great amount of weight, she has beautiful hair, she's living AND making it on her own, and she's with a really sweet, great guy! (My brother's girlfriend's brother, so he's going to be my brother-in-law) She's got it all, and that's a LOT better than how she had it back in the day. A LOT better.
But now I've lost the point of this post, and I just feel quite bitter and sad all at the same time. I know, I know... I need to stop it... It's not good for my health. So I'll close this up and go downstairs, curl up on the couch, watch Edward Scissorhands, Powder, and Lord of the Rings over and over and over again, while playing on my new laptop that I named Figwit. Maybe then I'll feel better. Who knows, anymore... *shrug*
Candice - The 'pretty' one of the four, so they would say, but she never felt pretty enough. The Broadway Diva, the drama queen, the goth princess. The oldest, yet the youngest at heart. The romanticist who just wanted to be loved. The obsessive-compulsive.
Amber - The tough girl who just wanted to be loved. The sensible one. The artist. The one with low self-esteem. The mellow girl. The girl who knew all the trivia. The fighter.
Tahnee - The dreamer. The youngest, yet the mother of us all. The one with the well-to-do family, but the one who chose us 'lesser' people as friends. The peacemaker. The curious one.
Samantha - The logical one. The smart girl. The only one I knew who could be such a brainiac, yet such an airhead at the same time. The contemplative one. The girl who just wanted to keep her family together but whom always seemed so independent.
We were each so different in our own ways, yet we fit together so well. Check it out. Even our initials spelled out our favorite animal, CATS. But now... Now things have grown so distant between us all. To quote Rent, "How did we get here? How the hell..." What is this post about anyway, you may ask? Well, I've been reflective lately. We used to all go together so well, but now??? To quote Linkin Park, "Even though you're close to me, you're still so distant, and I can't bring you back". Now that school is out, and we've all grown up, we have all grown so distant... And this is how:
Candice - As for myself, I always had big dreams. I always wanted to move to a big city and become a great theater star, singing and acting for the pleasure of many, doing what I love for them to love. But now, I doubt I shall ever reach those stars. I'm stuck in a small town, with a pretty decent job, but I'm not doing what I love. And you know what the sad thing is? I like where I am, now. Mom and I are making it pretty well together, and I don't want anything to disrupt what we have right now. I want something so badly, but yet I'm not going to make an attempt to achieve it. How awful is that? And now I'm paranoid about my health, because all I wanted to do was try and become a vegan to make my quality of life better, and ended up accidentally giving myself a virus. So now I worry that with my immune system being so low, that I could catch something else, and that'll be the thing that kills me. All because I wanted to try and be a better, healthier person. Do you know how scared that makes me? To know that if I don't get better, I could REALLY catch something nasty, get SO sick, and die? Paranoid, maybe, but it still scares me to no end.
Amber - I found out recently that she's been getting into drinking and smoking pot. She has sunk quite low over the last year. She works constantly, and when she's not working, she's so depressed and stressed out about how much she has to work, that she turns to doing that stuff for relief. I don't know what to think of her anymore... There are other ways to get around depression, and she DOES have the right to say NO when her boss asks her to work overtime. I just don't know what to do, being so far away...
Tahnee - I admire her so much, but yet I feel so bad for her, all the same. She's in college, wanting to learn archeology so that she might be one of the diggers up on Mars one of these days. I believe she could actually do it, too. Any time she says she's going to do something, at least her dreams never fail... But yet she's so alone... I hardly see her anymore, and we were like sisters. Amber's gone off on her thing, and Samantha, too. I think she feels like we've left her. It's sad, since I felt like they've left me behind, and I'm stuck here while they change so much... I wonder if she feels the same way?
Samantha - She's taken to living with her boyfriend. When I moved away, I was so cold-hearted to her, because I was mad at how stuck-up she had become. She was tactless in telling us how much she didn't like Amber's purple hair, or my black hair with red streaks. I felt like it was a slap in the face, like she was saying she was better than us. But now she IS better than us. She's shaped up her body quite nicely, losing a great amount of weight, she has beautiful hair, she's living AND making it on her own, and she's with a really sweet, great guy! (My brother's girlfriend's brother, so he's going to be my brother-in-law) She's got it all, and that's a LOT better than how she had it back in the day. A LOT better.
But now I've lost the point of this post, and I just feel quite bitter and sad all at the same time. I know, I know... I need to stop it... It's not good for my health. So I'll close this up and go downstairs, curl up on the couch, watch Edward Scissorhands, Powder, and Lord of the Rings over and over and over again, while playing on my new laptop that I named Figwit. Maybe then I'll feel better. Who knows, anymore... *shrug*
- Mood:
exhausted
Wednesday, May 7, 2003
Low Immunities
Yep... I'm getting a cold. I hate when I can feel sickness coming on, but I can't do anything to stop it. But I can tell because of two main reasons, and those reasons are due to this:
One, because of the obvious, that my immunities are low from having shingles and taking the Valtrex, so I'm likely to catch a disease much faster than usual.
And two, because it's almost time to visit 'Aunt Flo' (too much information? lol) and it's said that women are more likely to be susceptible to sickness just before that time.
But at least I get a surprise package from my bestest friend today. AND... I get my laptop *glee!* I may feel like a pile of poo right now, but at least I'm a happy pile of poo :-D
One, because of the obvious, that my immunities are low from having shingles and taking the Valtrex, so I'm likely to catch a disease much faster than usual.
And two, because it's almost time to visit 'Aunt Flo' (too much information? lol) and it's said that women are more likely to be susceptible to sickness just before that time.
But at least I get a surprise package from my bestest friend today. AND... I get my laptop *glee!* I may feel like a pile of poo right now, but at least I'm a happy pile of poo :-D
Tuesday, May 6, 2003
Shingles Update
YAY! I got owls! lol I FINALLY got to check the mail and got letters from my Harry Potter friends! I love this whole pen-pal kind of thing we've all got going on here. VH is amazing, how it ties us all together like that. Today, I got letters from Kame-chan and the Odd-meister!
I shall make replies as soon as I can.
An update: As for my arm, it's now a bunch of scabs and well on it's way to healing. HOWEVER... I got something on my leg now, and finally got these 'reaction bumps' on my fingers that he said I should have had by the time I came into see him. These came after I ran out of the medication... I think I may have to go back and get more. I've been feeling like crap... achy bones, little headaches every so often, and I feel a sore throat coming on. *groan* I must be getting old waaaaaay before my time. Let's just blame it on side effects of the medication....
An update: As for my arm, it's now a bunch of scabs and well on it's way to healing. HOWEVER... I got something on my leg now, and finally got these 'reaction bumps' on my fingers that he said I should have had by the time I came into see him. These came after I ran out of the medication... I think I may have to go back and get more. I've been feeling like crap... achy bones, little headaches every so often, and I feel a sore throat coming on. *groan* I must be getting old waaaaaay before my time. Let's just blame it on side effects of the medication....
Wednesday, April 30, 2003
The Customer is Always a BITCH!
DIE filthy-mammoth-skank-ass-bitch, DIE!!!
*......ahem......*
And now, for the explanation...
I'm plagued by one of those 'constant complainers'. You know the type, right? Those kind of people who aren't happy unless they're unhappy and always have to have something to complain about just so they can feel better about themselves?
Well some of you know that I'm a lunch lady at a car factory. They people here make car parts, and I feed the people. I also fill the vending machines, I ring them up, and I do this all on my own. I put food out for first break, lunch, and last break.
Well many months ago, I was putting out sliders (mini burgers) for the first break (and other food too, but this was the food in question), and I was supposed to leave them out so the rest of them would sell for lunch break, and that way, if anyone had come in late for their first break, they would still have some food to eat.
But there was a woman at my work who said that the buns of the burgers would be too hard by the time lunch break came around, so she told my bosses, and because of that, I had to quit sitting out any food at all for first break (which cost us a lot since no one was allowed to buy anything during that time.) Instead, people would just have to get something from the vending machines if they were hungry.
Well, I made a deal with my boss recently. I said to her "How about - I make food for the first break, but I'll throw whatever is left away before I put out the fresh food for lunch break." She said 'deal', and for a while it was going good. And do you know WHY it was going good? Because that complainer had gotten lad off due to slow business, so she wasn't there to complain about any of the food any more.
But now she's back, and guess what? Today they said they got a complaint from the same bitch, telling me that she thinks the same food is passed over, just because the hot box that I stick all the food in looks full. You know WHY It looks full? Because I put out fresh food! Like I told them, I just try to put one of everything so the people have a selection of food to pick from. But it's clearly not as full as it gets on lunch break. You think she would notice the difference, but I guess she thinks it's the old food plus whatever I add to it?
When I found out that it was the same woman making these complaints, I said "I swear, this woman must be out to get me" and then my boss told me that for a while, it was a complaint every day, but this is the first one she made in a while. First off, she should get her facts straight before making useless complaints that have no meaning, because I'm in the right. Secondly, I never got any complaints while she was laid off. And third, if she doesn't shut her shitty mouth, I may have to stuff my fist in it!
*sigh* The things I go through with these factory workers... *shakes head wearily* They strut around like they own the place. They don't work any harder than I do. In fact, I'm probably having to deal with more stress than they do just because of how picky they are!
*......ahem......*
And now, for the explanation...
I'm plagued by one of those 'constant complainers'. You know the type, right? Those kind of people who aren't happy unless they're unhappy and always have to have something to complain about just so they can feel better about themselves?
Well some of you know that I'm a lunch lady at a car factory. They people here make car parts, and I feed the people. I also fill the vending machines, I ring them up, and I do this all on my own. I put food out for first break, lunch, and last break.
Well many months ago, I was putting out sliders (mini burgers) for the first break (and other food too, but this was the food in question), and I was supposed to leave them out so the rest of them would sell for lunch break, and that way, if anyone had come in late for their first break, they would still have some food to eat.
But there was a woman at my work who said that the buns of the burgers would be too hard by the time lunch break came around, so she told my bosses, and because of that, I had to quit sitting out any food at all for first break (which cost us a lot since no one was allowed to buy anything during that time.) Instead, people would just have to get something from the vending machines if they were hungry.
Well, I made a deal with my boss recently. I said to her "How about - I make food for the first break, but I'll throw whatever is left away before I put out the fresh food for lunch break." She said 'deal', and for a while it was going good. And do you know WHY it was going good? Because that complainer had gotten lad off due to slow business, so she wasn't there to complain about any of the food any more.
But now she's back, and guess what? Today they said they got a complaint from the same bitch, telling me that she thinks the same food is passed over, just because the hot box that I stick all the food in looks full. You know WHY It looks full? Because I put out fresh food! Like I told them, I just try to put one of everything so the people have a selection of food to pick from. But it's clearly not as full as it gets on lunch break. You think she would notice the difference, but I guess she thinks it's the old food plus whatever I add to it?
When I found out that it was the same woman making these complaints, I said "I swear, this woman must be out to get me" and then my boss told me that for a while, it was a complaint every day, but this is the first one she made in a while. First off, she should get her facts straight before making useless complaints that have no meaning, because I'm in the right. Secondly, I never got any complaints while she was laid off. And third, if she doesn't shut her shitty mouth, I may have to stuff my fist in it!
*sigh* The things I go through with these factory workers... *shakes head wearily* They strut around like they own the place. They don't work any harder than I do. In fact, I'm probably having to deal with more stress than they do just because of how picky they are!
Friday, April 25, 2003
Cast-Eye Ron
Don't think I've showed this off yet...
It's me as a pirate! X-D
Thanks to Xenos for the name.
(Cast iron, get it? And because I keep an eye out on top of the crow's nest, and the word cast, like cast out to sea, and eye for watching, and cast iron for metal, like my sword, my telescope, and parts of the ship)
It's me as a pirate! X-D
Thanks to Xenos for the name.
(Cast iron, get it? And because I keep an eye out on top of the crow's nest, and the word cast, like cast out to sea, and eye for watching, and cast iron for metal, like my sword, my telescope, and parts of the ship)
Tuesday, April 22, 2003
My First Time With Shingles
Good news? I got to go to the doctor today! Mystery rash problem has been solved!
(see the previous blog here: https://themultimom.blogspot.com/2003/04/name-that-mystery-rash.html)
Bad news? He says I have Shingles...
A little bit about Shingles for those who don't know (because I certainly didn't):
After one contracts chicken pox, the virus can lie dormant in sensory (skin) nerves for decades. It reappears when the immune system is weakened by age, disease or unmanaged stress. When events occur that decrease the immune system, such as aging, severe emotional stress, severe illness, or long-term usage of corticosteroids, the immune system cannot suppress the dormant organisms any longer and they become active again, causing infection along the pathway of the nerve. Painful skin blisters erupt on one side of your face or body. It can be excruciatingly painful, itchy, and tender. After one to two weeks, the blisters heal and form scabs, although the pain continues.
The doctor says that in my case, because the outbreak was in a not-so-sensitive part of my arm, that's why it feels a bit numb to the touch. It does itch like mad along the sides where it's spreading a bit. It doesn't really hurt, but it tingles, and it burns as if I've had a sunburn (but I'm not actually sunburnt). And I did almost feel like I was about to black out once in the shower. I held my arm up to the water to cleanse it, and everything started getting dark around my vision, and I became disoriented for a moment. I had to sit down to finish my shower :-/
As for the outbreak being due to stress, I imagine that's very correct. I've been told that because I don't make enough money at work, I'm about to lose my job, and my mom is laid off. So not only is there stress to try and make MORE money at work, but there is the stress that if I DON'T, then we're screwed. I've also been trying to become a vegan recently, so it could be that the lack of meat is putting my body under additional stress as well.
The pain of shingles is caused by an inflammation of the nerve that lies just beneath the skin's surface. Shingles originates from the same virus which causes chickenpox. The virus, after infecting the person with chickenpox, retreats to the nervous system where it remains dormant for many years. It reappears in the form of shingles, only if the immune system is weakened, or as a result of a more severe or lengthy illness, extreme stress, or a therapy involving suppression of the immune system.
To help get rid of it, I have been given Valtrex to take. I remember seeing commercials for this, but I had no idea that this is what it was used for. Here's hoping it works and does some good!
(see the previous blog here: https://themultimom.blogspot.com/2003/04/name-that-mystery-rash.html)
Bad news? He says I have Shingles...
A little bit about Shingles for those who don't know (because I certainly didn't):
After one contracts chicken pox, the virus can lie dormant in sensory (skin) nerves for decades. It reappears when the immune system is weakened by age, disease or unmanaged stress. When events occur that decrease the immune system, such as aging, severe emotional stress, severe illness, or long-term usage of corticosteroids, the immune system cannot suppress the dormant organisms any longer and they become active again, causing infection along the pathway of the nerve. Painful skin blisters erupt on one side of your face or body. It can be excruciatingly painful, itchy, and tender. After one to two weeks, the blisters heal and form scabs, although the pain continues.
The doctor says that in my case, because the outbreak was in a not-so-sensitive part of my arm, that's why it feels a bit numb to the touch. It does itch like mad along the sides where it's spreading a bit. It doesn't really hurt, but it tingles, and it burns as if I've had a sunburn (but I'm not actually sunburnt). And I did almost feel like I was about to black out once in the shower. I held my arm up to the water to cleanse it, and everything started getting dark around my vision, and I became disoriented for a moment. I had to sit down to finish my shower :-/
As for the outbreak being due to stress, I imagine that's very correct. I've been told that because I don't make enough money at work, I'm about to lose my job, and my mom is laid off. So not only is there stress to try and make MORE money at work, but there is the stress that if I DON'T, then we're screwed. I've also been trying to become a vegan recently, so it could be that the lack of meat is putting my body under additional stress as well.
The pain of shingles is caused by an inflammation of the nerve that lies just beneath the skin's surface. Shingles originates from the same virus which causes chickenpox. The virus, after infecting the person with chickenpox, retreats to the nervous system where it remains dormant for many years. It reappears in the form of shingles, only if the immune system is weakened, or as a result of a more severe or lengthy illness, extreme stress, or a therapy involving suppression of the immune system.
To help get rid of it, I have been given Valtrex to take. I remember seeing commercials for this, but I had no idea that this is what it was used for. Here's hoping it works and does some good!
Monday, April 21, 2003
Name That Mystery Rash!
Gross, eww, disgusting, and even more gross...
I have some kind of... thing on my arm.
I don't know what it is.
I just noticed bumps on it one day because it stung when I was washing dishes. I thought maybe it was just overly dried skin, but it got worse. Little blisters started to raise up on it, and three days later, I get this. It's becoming like blisters on top of blisters. It's pretty numb when I touch it. Think I should be worried? lol (Obviously yes, but I'm trying not to start getting freaked out by it.)
My Mom put cream and a light bandage on it last night. She said since trying to dry it out wasn't working, that we would try to keep it damp. The blisters just seem to get bigger, though... *cringe* She DID say she wanted us to wait for about three days before going to see a doctor about it, just to see if we can get it under control or not. I'm hoping those days come quickly. I can get to be a very paranoid person and I know my arm isn't going to fall off, but my paranoia is making me worry that it will.
I have some kind of... thing on my arm.
I don't know what it is.
I just noticed bumps on it one day because it stung when I was washing dishes. I thought maybe it was just overly dried skin, but it got worse. Little blisters started to raise up on it, and three days later, I get this. It's becoming like blisters on top of blisters. It's pretty numb when I touch it. Think I should be worried? lol (Obviously yes, but I'm trying not to start getting freaked out by it.)
My Mom put cream and a light bandage on it last night. She said since trying to dry it out wasn't working, that we would try to keep it damp. The blisters just seem to get bigger, though... *cringe* She DID say she wanted us to wait for about three days before going to see a doctor about it, just to see if we can get it under control or not. I'm hoping those days come quickly. I can get to be a very paranoid person and I know my arm isn't going to fall off, but my paranoia is making me worry that it will.
Saturday, April 12, 2003
15 Questions About Me
Doing this because 1. It looked fun 2. I don't feel like doing much else 3. because it looked fun, and I didn't feel like doing much else.
1) Where are you really from?
Born in Haiti Missouri, live in New Haven Missouri, lived in lots of other places in the past, mainly in Illinois, Missouri, and Nebraska.
2) What is your mission here on Earth?
As far as I know, I'm just another thread in the weaving of the Fates. Or in my case, another character in some crazed psycho girl's role play. Or maybe just another victim in the Sims?
3) If someone told you he was a super hero, and he had no evidence to back up his claim, would you believe him?
No, though I would most likely keep that to myself and feed them their own illusions by offering to be their sidekick.
4) Of all the people who have gone down in history for being crazy, who is your favorite?
Marilyn Manson. I wouldn't really call him crazy, but others do, and he's one of my favorite stars.
5) Who is your favorite monster?
That deranged, demented looking creature that I see when I wake up in the morning and look in the mirror.
6) Which is your favorite fairy tale?
Beauty and the Beast, or a more modern adaptation - Phantom of the Opera.
7) Sour apple or apple cinnamon?
apple cinnamon?
8) Dark chocolate, milk chocolate, or white chocolate?
ALL chocolates!
9) Do you like Fanta (you'd better say yes...)
? The intended answer to this question is inconclusive, until the answer-er can understand what 'Fanta' is.
10) What's your favorite song interjection?
Song interjection? What's that? (I'm starting to think maybe I shouldn't have taken the quiz...)
11) If you had your own amusement park, what would it be called and what would it be like?
I would make mini themeparks all over the place, based on different movies, like Pirates of the Caribbean (yes, I know it's a Disney thing, but I can still imagine, dammit!) and Lord of the Rings. THAT would be my biggest park, is LOTR.
12) Make up a word right now and define it.
What? You mean I can't decide between 'uber' 'erf' and all those? Alright... One I've made up myself... How about - scrinch and that has two meanings... 1 - the movement that a worm makes. It scrinches along by shoving it's body together and then stretching out. 2 - when you paw at something like a cat, you're scrinching it, working it up into a bundle, and letting it go again.
13) What was the best era for sci-fi?
I like the Sci-Fi of the early 90's when all the computer special effects were just starting to become new to everyone, but I guess it's even better now, because there's so many great special effected movies. I can't wait for the Matrix, Reloaded. So many Agent Elronds... *drool*
14) Who writes the best parodies (song or otherwise)?
The Three Loonies (Jex, Dagrak, and Xenos) lol! Either them, or the Flight of the Conchords who basically take something like LOTR and make a song called Frodo Don't Wear the Ring.
15) If you were to be reincarnated as anything, animate, inanimate, existent or non-existent, what would it be?
I have so many choices. Mainly, I just want to live forever and never die, but if I HAD to choose... An Elf, or a pirate, or a goddess, or a vampire, or an amazon, or... someone with lots of adventure and uncanny abilities. I love things that are everything I'm not...
1) Where are you really from?
Born in Haiti Missouri, live in New Haven Missouri, lived in lots of other places in the past, mainly in Illinois, Missouri, and Nebraska.
2) What is your mission here on Earth?
As far as I know, I'm just another thread in the weaving of the Fates. Or in my case, another character in some crazed psycho girl's role play. Or maybe just another victim in the Sims?
3) If someone told you he was a super hero, and he had no evidence to back up his claim, would you believe him?
No, though I would most likely keep that to myself and feed them their own illusions by offering to be their sidekick.
4) Of all the people who have gone down in history for being crazy, who is your favorite?
Marilyn Manson. I wouldn't really call him crazy, but others do, and he's one of my favorite stars.
5) Who is your favorite monster?
That deranged, demented looking creature that I see when I wake up in the morning and look in the mirror.
6) Which is your favorite fairy tale?
Beauty and the Beast, or a more modern adaptation - Phantom of the Opera.
7) Sour apple or apple cinnamon?
apple cinnamon?
8) Dark chocolate, milk chocolate, or white chocolate?
ALL chocolates!
9) Do you like Fanta (you'd better say yes...)
? The intended answer to this question is inconclusive, until the answer-er can understand what 'Fanta' is.
10) What's your favorite song interjection?
Song interjection? What's that? (I'm starting to think maybe I shouldn't have taken the quiz...)
11) If you had your own amusement park, what would it be called and what would it be like?
I would make mini themeparks all over the place, based on different movies, like Pirates of the Caribbean (yes, I know it's a Disney thing, but I can still imagine, dammit!) and Lord of the Rings. THAT would be my biggest park, is LOTR.
12) Make up a word right now and define it.
What? You mean I can't decide between 'uber' 'erf' and all those? Alright... One I've made up myself... How about - scrinch and that has two meanings... 1 - the movement that a worm makes. It scrinches along by shoving it's body together and then stretching out. 2 - when you paw at something like a cat, you're scrinching it, working it up into a bundle, and letting it go again.
13) What was the best era for sci-fi?
I like the Sci-Fi of the early 90's when all the computer special effects were just starting to become new to everyone, but I guess it's even better now, because there's so many great special effected movies. I can't wait for the Matrix, Reloaded. So many Agent Elronds... *drool*
14) Who writes the best parodies (song or otherwise)?
The Three Loonies (Jex, Dagrak, and Xenos) lol! Either them, or the Flight of the Conchords who basically take something like LOTR and make a song called Frodo Don't Wear the Ring.
15) If you were to be reincarnated as anything, animate, inanimate, existent or non-existent, what would it be?
I have so many choices. Mainly, I just want to live forever and never die, but if I HAD to choose... An Elf, or a pirate, or a goddess, or a vampire, or an amazon, or... someone with lots of adventure and uncanny abilities. I love things that are everything I'm not...
Thursday, April 10, 2003
Ms. Cellophane
It's been a few days... I haven't posted here since my 'I'm depressed, please help me' post, but only one person really seemed to notice anyway... *Hugs Alatar* Thanks, sweetie. Once again, this is proof that no one really notices me. I'd say people can just call me Ms. Cellophane... but they would probably forget that, too...
The good news is that I was able to shove aside the 'hopeless, I'm useless, I'm going nowhere' feeling for the time being, thanks to my new obsession for Pirates of the Caribbean. Here's a gallery I made of Johnny Depp pics as Captain Jack Sparrow, if any of you are interested.
http://www.geocities.com/capjacksparrow/index.html
I personally like to drool over them every hour or so. I'm so happy this sexy man is still making movies. I'm also a bit happier because I bought a cordless laser (optical) mouse (yay for shopping!), and in the next week or two, I'll be getting a laptop. I've wanted one ever since way back when. Now, when I go anywhere that I know I'll be brain-dead, I can take it with me to keep me free from the insanity known as the 'real' world.
And then there's July to look forward to, so I want my life to continue until then, at the least. In July, I'll get to see Pirates of the Caribbean, and I'm going to Ozzfest. Hey! I'll be 21! That's the legal drinking age! *devious grin* Should I, or shouldn't I??? *ponder* If I'm smart, I won't... If I'm depressed, I just may... Depends on what Marilyn Manson tells me. Muah-hah-hah-haa!
Hmm... Anything else to tell? I know there was a thing or two here and there that I wanted to mention. And I feel quite brainless for not realizing this, but did you know Flash Harry is Barnaby Weir, the lead singer of the Black Seeds? I doubt any of you know that or who all those names are, except for Alatar. Once again - *hugs to Alatar* You're just so amazing X-D LOL
A little bit of vacation time is coming up. I wonder if I'll ever get to work on that demo CD that I've been trying to find time to work on for about a year, now? Probably not... I hate apartments. I can't be too loud, and I never have time alone to do it. Work is good. I want more overtime. I love that money... There's nothing more I can think of for the time being, and at least when I'm working, it keeps my mind busy so I'm usually too busy to think of my faults.
The good news is that I was able to shove aside the 'hopeless, I'm useless, I'm going nowhere' feeling for the time being, thanks to my new obsession for Pirates of the Caribbean. Here's a gallery I made of Johnny Depp pics as Captain Jack Sparrow, if any of you are interested.
http://www.geocities.com/capjacksparrow/index.html
I personally like to drool over them every hour or so. I'm so happy this sexy man is still making movies. I'm also a bit happier because I bought a cordless laser (optical) mouse (yay for shopping!), and in the next week or two, I'll be getting a laptop. I've wanted one ever since way back when. Now, when I go anywhere that I know I'll be brain-dead, I can take it with me to keep me free from the insanity known as the 'real' world.
And then there's July to look forward to, so I want my life to continue until then, at the least. In July, I'll get to see Pirates of the Caribbean, and I'm going to Ozzfest. Hey! I'll be 21! That's the legal drinking age! *devious grin* Should I, or shouldn't I??? *ponder* If I'm smart, I won't... If I'm depressed, I just may... Depends on what Marilyn Manson tells me. Muah-hah-hah-haa!
Hmm... Anything else to tell? I know there was a thing or two here and there that I wanted to mention. And I feel quite brainless for not realizing this, but did you know Flash Harry is Barnaby Weir, the lead singer of the Black Seeds? I doubt any of you know that or who all those names are, except for Alatar. Once again - *hugs to Alatar* You're just so amazing X-D LOL
A little bit of vacation time is coming up. I wonder if I'll ever get to work on that demo CD that I've been trying to find time to work on for about a year, now? Probably not... I hate apartments. I can't be too loud, and I never have time alone to do it. Work is good. I want more overtime. I love that money... There's nothing more I can think of for the time being, and at least when I'm working, it keeps my mind busy so I'm usually too busy to think of my faults.
Monday, April 7, 2003
Can't Go Nowhere Fast When You're Already There...
It's been three months. That's sounds about right. Time for another depression. It seems like every three months, I get into a 'I'm stuck here and I'll never get anywhere in life' frame of mind. There was so much I had planned to do already at this point in my life, but every time I plan something or wish for something, it falls through and life says 'haha, screw you, got your hopes up, you suck!'
This time, it's all because I miss my musicals and the whole theater scene... I dreamed back in High School that I'd be on stage by now, preforming musicals and singing my heart out. I never honestly thought I'd get to Broadway. Any stage would do, really. But I was determined to do what I love, and singing and acting was it!
I'm glad for my friend Xenos (James Bell). He told me he's now been asked to play a part in Godspell, after a successful show of doing Crazy For You. I'm not ashamed to admit that yes, I'm jealous, and yes, I envy him very much, but I'm also VERY happy for him. I have congratulated him (and meant it) for being successful with something I've always wanted to do since I can remember. But that doesn't mean I'm happy with myself. I'm still pretty angry and hurt that it just seems to come so easily for some people while the rest of us just get lost along the way.
I just can't help but to cry when I get depressed that I'm stuck here in this pathetic little town, unable to have access to such things, while he's out singing and dancing, and doing everything I've wanted to do with all my heart. I'm mad at myself for not trying harder. For not getting out when I had the chance. For just expecting my dreams to happen and not MAKING them happen, and just taking the leap to DO it. Blargh... I better shut up while I'm ahead. I bet this sounds quite immature of me... :-(
This time, it's all because I miss my musicals and the whole theater scene... I dreamed back in High School that I'd be on stage by now, preforming musicals and singing my heart out. I never honestly thought I'd get to Broadway. Any stage would do, really. But I was determined to do what I love, and singing and acting was it!
I'm glad for my friend Xenos (James Bell). He told me he's now been asked to play a part in Godspell, after a successful show of doing Crazy For You. I'm not ashamed to admit that yes, I'm jealous, and yes, I envy him very much, but I'm also VERY happy for him. I have congratulated him (and meant it) for being successful with something I've always wanted to do since I can remember. But that doesn't mean I'm happy with myself. I'm still pretty angry and hurt that it just seems to come so easily for some people while the rest of us just get lost along the way.
I just can't help but to cry when I get depressed that I'm stuck here in this pathetic little town, unable to have access to such things, while he's out singing and dancing, and doing everything I've wanted to do with all my heart. I'm mad at myself for not trying harder. For not getting out when I had the chance. For just expecting my dreams to happen and not MAKING them happen, and just taking the leap to DO it. Blargh... I better shut up while I'm ahead. I bet this sounds quite immature of me... :-(
Wednesday, April 2, 2003
Figwit and Bret McKenzie Sound Clips!
(Post-Note: These links no longer work, but I'm leaving this blog here for the memories ♥)
Thanks to the awesome Figwit Lives website
( http://www.figwitlives.net/ )
I have been able to take a clip of Bret McKenzie saying "My name is Figwit, the Elf"
Take a listen!
http://www.geocities.com/Figwit_Sounds/Figwit.mp3
More Links:
Now, my Figwit page plays that when it's opened up:
http://www.geocities.com/namarie_x/Figwit.html
I have a whole bunch more mp3's to put up of Bret saying little things here and there for my sounds page, but I'll have to wait until tomorrow to work on that. I'll be working nearly 70 hours a week now, so that means less time online... I just have to remind myself- the money... It's all about the money!
Also, here are two songs from Flight of the Conchords that you may listen to:
Frodo, Don't Wear the Ring (a rejected LOTR Demo *snicker*)
http://www.geocities.com/figwit_sounds/FrodoDontWeartheRing.mp3
Alby, the Racist Dragon
http://www.geocities.com/figwit_sounds/AlbyTheRacistDragon.mp3
They are MP3's... you might want to right click and 'save as' so that you might listen to them better.
Thanks to the awesome Figwit Lives website
( http://www.figwitlives.net/ )
I have been able to take a clip of Bret McKenzie saying "My name is Figwit, the Elf"
Take a listen!
http://www.geocities.com/Figwit_Sounds/Figwit.mp3
More Links:
Now, my Figwit page plays that when it's opened up:
http://www.geocities.com/namarie_x/Figwit.html
I have a whole bunch more mp3's to put up of Bret saying little things here and there for my sounds page, but I'll have to wait until tomorrow to work on that. I'll be working nearly 70 hours a week now, so that means less time online... I just have to remind myself- the money... It's all about the money!
Also, here are two songs from Flight of the Conchords that you may listen to:
Frodo, Don't Wear the Ring (a rejected LOTR Demo *snicker*)
http://www.geocities.com/figwit_sounds/FrodoDontWeartheRing.mp3
Alby, the Racist Dragon
http://www.geocities.com/figwit_sounds/AlbyTheRacistDragon.mp3
They are MP3's... you might want to right click and 'save as' so that you might listen to them better.
Saturday, March 29, 2003
You Can't Turn Toast Into Bread
You can't turn toast into bread... meaning that after things change, you can't go back and undo them.
Where have I gone to? I once knew where I was. I once knew where I was going. I once knew where I came from, and I once knew that no matter where I turned, someone would know me, even if I didn't know them. But where have I gone to? No one seems to ask anymore... I guess this just goes to prove that no matter what memories you try to leave with someone, eventually, their memories of you die and pass on into... nothing? So therefore... I've gone nowhere?
Precisely. I think I'm stuck. Not just stuck where I am in the physical world, but stuck in time. If anyone should think of me, they will always remember me as I was. They couldn't imagine where I might be, especially if I've gone nowhere at all. And as sad as that seems, I believe I may feel the same way about them as well?
I know my best friends are growing up and living with their boyfriends, and taking care of themselves in their own homes, off to college and actually living their lives for themselves, but I think that I'll always remember them as they were. In some ways, it's very good. It makes for a lot of precious memories. But in a lot of ways.. it hurts. I see them changing into something better, and here I am, forgotten, stuck, and going nowhere fast.
Am I jealous? Most likely... I guess I just hate that fact that in my mind, I know that things can never be the same. So many changes happen and as for those great memories? We can never go back to them. In our minds, yes, but nothing will ever be the same. And it's not just with my friends. It's with everything. Every once in a while, I get these old sensations of things I felt before. Feelings that bring up memories that had been lying dormant for a while. Feelings that made me feel like life was actually worth living. And being me, of course I'm going to dwell on it, and I feel so empty inside.
I feel a great ache because I know it's gone and it won't come back. Not for anybody, and especially not for me. My friend Amber calls me a romanticist, and she says I feel too much emotion. As much as I would like to take that as something good, I often find myself cursing myself for it. If I didn't feel too much, I wouldn't hurt so much. Will there ever be a place in life for a person like me, or will I only be free of sorrow when my body withers away and the fire of my soul finally dwindles and dies?
current mood:
gloomy
Where have I gone to? I once knew where I was. I once knew where I was going. I once knew where I came from, and I once knew that no matter where I turned, someone would know me, even if I didn't know them. But where have I gone to? No one seems to ask anymore... I guess this just goes to prove that no matter what memories you try to leave with someone, eventually, their memories of you die and pass on into... nothing? So therefore... I've gone nowhere?
Precisely. I think I'm stuck. Not just stuck where I am in the physical world, but stuck in time. If anyone should think of me, they will always remember me as I was. They couldn't imagine where I might be, especially if I've gone nowhere at all. And as sad as that seems, I believe I may feel the same way about them as well?
I know my best friends are growing up and living with their boyfriends, and taking care of themselves in their own homes, off to college and actually living their lives for themselves, but I think that I'll always remember them as they were. In some ways, it's very good. It makes for a lot of precious memories. But in a lot of ways.. it hurts. I see them changing into something better, and here I am, forgotten, stuck, and going nowhere fast.
Am I jealous? Most likely... I guess I just hate that fact that in my mind, I know that things can never be the same. So many changes happen and as for those great memories? We can never go back to them. In our minds, yes, but nothing will ever be the same. And it's not just with my friends. It's with everything. Every once in a while, I get these old sensations of things I felt before. Feelings that bring up memories that had been lying dormant for a while. Feelings that made me feel like life was actually worth living. And being me, of course I'm going to dwell on it, and I feel so empty inside.
I feel a great ache because I know it's gone and it won't come back. Not for anybody, and especially not for me. My friend Amber calls me a romanticist, and she says I feel too much emotion. As much as I would like to take that as something good, I often find myself cursing myself for it. If I didn't feel too much, I wouldn't hurt so much. Will there ever be a place in life for a person like me, or will I only be free of sorrow when my body withers away and the fire of my soul finally dwindles and dies?
current mood:
gloomy
Tuesday, March 25, 2003
And I Shall Call Him "My Precious"
hehehe I read some friends's entries today and stumbled across this:
"I managed to claim Faelon before her. We're in each other's LJ friend lists now, so Candice if you're reading this.. you still can't have him :-P"
My reply? hahaha! That was funny :-D But yes, I understand. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe it's because eventually, when the world has changed, and you can feel it in the water, feel it in the earth, and smell it in the air, the tides will turn and I will be given the chance to claim Figwit. muah-hah-hah-haa!
In other news, March 21 was Ostara, and I missed yet another holiday. I really am slipping when it comes to the holidays that I want to celebrate the most. I was really hoping to try and celebrate all of the Pagan holidays this year. Drat... Already failing...
I had a headache most of the day, but I'm much better now. Nothing that some sleep couldn't cure. I also got to FINALLY chat with Ax today. (See my previous post for some info about him) He's really polite and FUNNY! AND he told us (in the chat) about a cool Celtic-sounding group he listens to called Old Blind Dogs. (OBD) I downloaded a few of their songs. Sounds like what I like to listen to :-D
But now I need to get ready for work... Joy... *deadpan face* Let's hope my headache doesn't come back :-p
"I managed to claim Faelon before her. We're in each other's LJ friend lists now, so Candice if you're reading this.. you still can't have him :-P"
My reply? hahaha! That was funny :-D But yes, I understand. Everything happens for a reason. Maybe it's because eventually, when the world has changed, and you can feel it in the water, feel it in the earth, and smell it in the air, the tides will turn and I will be given the chance to claim Figwit. muah-hah-hah-haa!
In other news, March 21 was Ostara, and I missed yet another holiday. I really am slipping when it comes to the holidays that I want to celebrate the most. I was really hoping to try and celebrate all of the Pagan holidays this year. Drat... Already failing...
I had a headache most of the day, but I'm much better now. Nothing that some sleep couldn't cure. I also got to FINALLY chat with Ax today. (See my previous post for some info about him) He's really polite and FUNNY! AND he told us (in the chat) about a cool Celtic-sounding group he listens to called Old Blind Dogs. (OBD) I downloaded a few of their songs. Sounds like what I like to listen to :-D
But now I need to get ready for work... Joy... *deadpan face* Let's hope my headache doesn't come back :-p
Sunday, March 23, 2003
That's How You Get Fans
Cool. Very cool. Alex "Ax" McClennan is on an Elf fansite that I'm on. It's dedicated to all the unofficial Elves in LOTR. You can find his official fanpage here at The Argonath:
http://www.theargonath.cc/amanthon/
He's a pretty groovy guy, and quite polite, at that. I think it's VERY awesome when people who have fansites dedicated to them actually take the time to have a conversation or two (or few) with the fans. *big teethy grin* THAT is how you get a fanbase. Not by acting like you're too good to interact with the fans, but by taking the time to interact and give them a little bit to feed their interest. If you're too hard to get a hold of, people either lose interest or they get bitter and turn against you, but if you give a little bit here and there, you keep the ball rolling. And it's just the polite thing to do :-p lol
If you don't know which elf he is in the Lord of the Rings movies, here's a few pics to help you get an idea. They're pretty small and not good of quality, but it's just to show you which Elf he is. This is Amanthon, Elf of the Left Tree Root.
I really wish I could have been an extra. That would be SO AWESOME to be a part of the LOTR movies... I bet I would have been made into a Hobbit, though... Short and squat... Homely... *envies the Elves* But hey, Rosie Cotton was pretty hot, right??? lol Anyway, thank you Ax, for taking the time to make the fangirls happy! ♥
http://www.theargonath.cc/amanthon/
He's a pretty groovy guy, and quite polite, at that. I think it's VERY awesome when people who have fansites dedicated to them actually take the time to have a conversation or two (or few) with the fans. *big teethy grin* THAT is how you get a fanbase. Not by acting like you're too good to interact with the fans, but by taking the time to interact and give them a little bit to feed their interest. If you're too hard to get a hold of, people either lose interest or they get bitter and turn against you, but if you give a little bit here and there, you keep the ball rolling. And it's just the polite thing to do :-p lol
If you don't know which elf he is in the Lord of the Rings movies, here's a few pics to help you get an idea. They're pretty small and not good of quality, but it's just to show you which Elf he is. This is Amanthon, Elf of the Left Tree Root.
I really wish I could have been an extra. That would be SO AWESOME to be a part of the LOTR movies... I bet I would have been made into a Hobbit, though... Short and squat... Homely... *envies the Elves* But hey, Rosie Cotton was pretty hot, right??? lol Anyway, thank you Ax, for taking the time to make the fangirls happy! ♥
Friday, March 21, 2003
I Usually Don't Like Talking About Politics, But...
Good! After reading the journal entries of my friends, I'm glad, thankful, and relieved to see that I'm not the only one who is pro-peace one here. When it comes to politics, you never know what people are going to want or what ideals they are going to side with.
Since I have been talking to a lot of friends "across the pond", I came to a decision on what I think of all this George Bush Jr. stuff going on, and that is: I, myself, live in the States, and I can't stand Bush or what he's doing. His actions is just dragging anti-war people like myself into something we strive to avoid. (Believe me, if I had the funds, I would already be moved out into a better country. New Zealand would be nice *big teethy grin*) His immaturity and power-hungry struggle is only going to get us all killed if HE isn't the one who is stopped... Sadly, there's not much that can be done. Morons elected him, morons support him, and he's the moron of all morons.
Strange... I live in America, yet I'm an Anti-American... Guess I should shut up while I'm ahead, though. I've probably offended some of my journal friends who HAVE voted for him, but they should know I mean no offence. For them, I make exceptions. They know I'm just frustrated about all of this, and I know they have their viewpoints and I have mine. We know we can all agree to disagree.
Just one more thing to say before I wrap this up: Give me symphony, or give me deaf!
Since I have been talking to a lot of friends "across the pond", I came to a decision on what I think of all this George Bush Jr. stuff going on, and that is: I, myself, live in the States, and I can't stand Bush or what he's doing. His actions is just dragging anti-war people like myself into something we strive to avoid. (Believe me, if I had the funds, I would already be moved out into a better country. New Zealand would be nice *big teethy grin*) His immaturity and power-hungry struggle is only going to get us all killed if HE isn't the one who is stopped... Sadly, there's not much that can be done. Morons elected him, morons support him, and he's the moron of all morons.
Strange... I live in America, yet I'm an Anti-American... Guess I should shut up while I'm ahead, though. I've probably offended some of my journal friends who HAVE voted for him, but they should know I mean no offence. For them, I make exceptions. They know I'm just frustrated about all of this, and I know they have their viewpoints and I have mine. We know we can all agree to disagree.
Just one more thing to say before I wrap this up: Give me symphony, or give me deaf!
Thursday, March 20, 2003
New Zealand Radio Station
I've been listening to Kiwi music like MAD lately. Mainly the station Radioactive 89FM in Wellington, New Zealand.
(It can be found here - http://www.radioactive.fm/ )
It's all because of my boys, The Black Seeds. I can't really get their music online, so I listen into this radio station hoping to hear them play a song or two.
I think this band is so AWESOME. I've even made a fanpage dedicated to them and their music. Man, I would love to just pick up everything and move to New Zealand right now. (You can find my page for them here - http://www.geocities.com/the_black_seeds/index.html ) I'm so excited though, because I wrote them the other day, and Rich Christie wrote back and said that if I made a fanpage, to give him the link (when I'm done with it) and they would drop me a line. Go, me! hehehe....
I think this band is so AWESOME. I've even made a fanpage dedicated to them and their music. Man, I would love to just pick up everything and move to New Zealand right now. (You can find my page for them here - http://www.geocities.com/the_black_seeds/index.html ) I'm so excited though, because I wrote them the other day, and Rich Christie wrote back and said that if I made a fanpage, to give him the link (when I'm done with it) and they would drop me a line. Go, me! hehehe....
Saturday, March 15, 2003
I Have the Autograph of Hades!
Whoo-hoo! I got the autograph of Hades! Wot? The god of the underworld, you say? Well not exactly...
Have you ever watched those old Xena episodes? The show about the warrior princess who fights the bad guys and the gods and goddesses of Greek/Roman culture? Well, a guy named Erik Thomson had played one of the two Hades characters on there. I got the signature card off of ebay, of course, but it's his, and now it's mine. Here's basically what it looks like (this is not mine, but it's pretty much the same):
My next autograph I plan on trying to get is Craig Parker's. (Haldir on LOTR) Me and my pathetic obsessions... *giggle* They make me so happy though! OH! Got my new Dell today. Yippie! I'm out for now. Gotta upload stuff to the computer and get it all set up.
Have you ever watched those old Xena episodes? The show about the warrior princess who fights the bad guys and the gods and goddesses of Greek/Roman culture? Well, a guy named Erik Thomson had played one of the two Hades characters on there. I got the signature card off of ebay, of course, but it's his, and now it's mine. Here's basically what it looks like (this is not mine, but it's pretty much the same):
My next autograph I plan on trying to get is Craig Parker's. (Haldir on LOTR) Me and my pathetic obsessions... *giggle* They make me so happy though! OH! Got my new Dell today. Yippie! I'm out for now. Gotta upload stuff to the computer and get it all set up.
Tuesday, March 11, 2003
And I Shall Call Him... Faelon
AHHHHH! Yay! YAY!!!
I FINALLY did it! I finally got to name an Elf!!!
*dies*
Alright. Here is what happened.
We found out Bret McKenzie (whom we all adore as Figiwt) has a brother that played a small part in Lord of the Rings as well. And recently that brother has been identified. His name is Justin McKenzie, and he sits on the right-hand side of Elrond in LOTR.
They (the fans) were saying how they would always either call Justin's elf by the names of "Elrohir" and "No Name". Well, someone who went to visit Bret on the Figwit Lives documentary trip (Figwit Lives is a website dedicated to the elf, Figwit) said that Bret told them which Elf Justin played. While they were looking for names to give Justin's elf, I was fortunate enough to put my two cents just in time.
One person (who runs the Argonath site (a site for nameless elves and other great LOTR stuff) said that, "Well, I put Justin's name through the Barrowdowns Name generator and that makes his Elven name Aratwath. What do you guys and girls think of that name? Shall we give him that name?"
So then I went even further and said, "Actually, from this site:
http://www.geocities.com/the_realm_of_the_lady/morenames6.html
It says: JUSTIN comes from a Latin name which means 'just' as in 'fairminded'. In Quenya this is 'faila', so when masculinized you name is Failon. '(the)Just one'. In Sindarin you name is Faelon, from 'fael' - 'just, having good fëa'. What do you think?"
So then the Figwit Lives associating person said, "I rather like the sound of Failon/Faelon. Goes nicely with Figwit."
Henceforth, they decided to with Faelon. So basically, I named an Elf! Sure, I didn't come up with the name. The chick that did all that research did, but I happened to find the name 'Justin' on there, and though I didn't invent it, I DID name HIM, before they dared name him Aratwath. This is so great! Bret McKenzie's brother, of all people! WHOO-HOO! *dies again* I tell you, I'm getting closer every day! Conquest shall be mine!!! *runs off, laughing maniacally*
We found out Bret McKenzie (whom we all adore as Figiwt) has a brother that played a small part in Lord of the Rings as well. And recently that brother has been identified. His name is Justin McKenzie, and he sits on the right-hand side of Elrond in LOTR.
They (the fans) were saying how they would always either call Justin's elf by the names of "Elrohir" and "No Name". Well, someone who went to visit Bret on the Figwit Lives documentary trip (Figwit Lives is a website dedicated to the elf, Figwit) said that Bret told them which Elf Justin played. While they were looking for names to give Justin's elf, I was fortunate enough to put my two cents just in time.
One person (who runs the Argonath site (a site for nameless elves and other great LOTR stuff) said that, "Well, I put Justin's name through the Barrowdowns Name generator and that makes his Elven name Aratwath. What do you guys and girls think of that name? Shall we give him that name?"
So then I went even further and said, "Actually, from this site:
http://www.geocities.com/the_realm_of_the_lady/morenames6.html
It says: JUSTIN comes from a Latin name which means 'just' as in 'fairminded'. In Quenya this is 'faila', so when masculinized you name is Failon. '(the)Just one'. In Sindarin you name is Faelon, from 'fael' - 'just, having good fëa'. What do you think?"
So then the Figwit Lives associating person said, "I rather like the sound of Failon/Faelon. Goes nicely with Figwit."
Henceforth, they decided to with Faelon. So basically, I named an Elf! Sure, I didn't come up with the name. The chick that did all that research did, but I happened to find the name 'Justin' on there, and though I didn't invent it, I DID name HIM, before they dared name him Aratwath. This is so great! Bret McKenzie's brother, of all people! WHOO-HOO! *dies again* I tell you, I'm getting closer every day! Conquest shall be mine!!! *runs off, laughing maniacally*
Monday, March 10, 2003
Figwit's Brother in LOTR!
I FINALLY found out who Figwit's brother is!!!
Er...Well... Bret McKenzie's brother. FINALLY, I can put it up on my site.Bret's younger brother Justin McKenzie was on LOTR as an Elf, too. I just never knew who it was until now. It was so obvious. DUH! I should have realized.
Justin plays the Elf that sits on the right-hand side of Elrond in the Council of Elrond scene. Here's Bret and his brother Justin in side-by-side pics. It was so obvious and I didn't realize it until I was told... sheesh! So good to have the mystery solved! I know it probably doesn't mean much to ordinary people, but to a fangirl, this is amazing! X-D
Saturday, March 8, 2003
Goals! (Now That I Own the One Ring!)
Dude... I'm gettin' a Dell.
Yay! So it looks like I'll be getting yet another new computer. This time, it's brand new, with 40 GB of storage space instead of the lousy 10 that this one has. It'll have Winows XP, DVD player, CD burner, all that good stuff that I love to have on my computer.
I also got some soy milk today while I was at the store. I've been wanting to try this. I got the Silk brand, both regular and chocolate flavors.
I like the chocolate very much! It reminds me of regular chocolate milk, only not as heavy... not as creamy, I guess? And it has a freshness to it. I guess because of the plant??? I don't like the regular so much. The flavor reminds me of something with wheat or oats, like oatmeal or frosted shredded wheat. I just wanted to try these because I really want to get heavy into this vegan thing.
I FINALLY got one of my LOTR rings from ebay! It's heavy, and it hasn't broke my finger out yet in itchy bumps (since I'm allergic to nickel) or turned it green, so I figure it must not be any kind of cheap metal. It didn't say in the listing what it's made out of, or if it's hypoallergenic or not. I won it for about $15, so it's all good. I have another one just like it coming soon that comes with a display base that lights up, and the chain that goes with it. This one is just to wear.
*strokes it feverishly* my preciousss... World domination shall be mine!
I've been thinking lately... I really should start writing all my buds again. I never wrote some of them back when I should have, like Aunt Beast and Kame... Kame, if you see this, I'm sorry about that. I might actually get into a writing mood again and send you a letter some time. Star had sent me about five letters since I last wrote her. Man, I'm such a procrastinator...
Got a new microphone for my computer, so that's good. If I ever can gain some 'right time', then I might actually be able to work on my music. If only I could buy time with money... There's never enough time, but I sure spend a lot of time trying to make that money...
Yay! So it looks like I'll be getting yet another new computer. This time, it's brand new, with 40 GB of storage space instead of the lousy 10 that this one has. It'll have Winows XP, DVD player, CD burner, all that good stuff that I love to have on my computer.
I also got some soy milk today while I was at the store. I've been wanting to try this. I got the Silk brand, both regular and chocolate flavors.
I like the chocolate very much! It reminds me of regular chocolate milk, only not as heavy... not as creamy, I guess? And it has a freshness to it. I guess because of the plant??? I don't like the regular so much. The flavor reminds me of something with wheat or oats, like oatmeal or frosted shredded wheat. I just wanted to try these because I really want to get heavy into this vegan thing.
I FINALLY got one of my LOTR rings from ebay! It's heavy, and it hasn't broke my finger out yet in itchy bumps (since I'm allergic to nickel) or turned it green, so I figure it must not be any kind of cheap metal. It didn't say in the listing what it's made out of, or if it's hypoallergenic or not. I won it for about $15, so it's all good. I have another one just like it coming soon that comes with a display base that lights up, and the chain that goes with it. This one is just to wear.
*strokes it feverishly* my preciousss... World domination shall be mine!
I've been thinking lately... I really should start writing all my buds again. I never wrote some of them back when I should have, like Aunt Beast and Kame... Kame, if you see this, I'm sorry about that. I might actually get into a writing mood again and send you a letter some time. Star had sent me about five letters since I last wrote her. Man, I'm such a procrastinator...
Got a new microphone for my computer, so that's good. If I ever can gain some 'right time', then I might actually be able to work on my music. If only I could buy time with money... There's never enough time, but I sure spend a lot of time trying to make that money...
No Rest for the Wicked
I feel dead... I'm so exhausted... I feel like I haven't slept decently in years... I don't know why, but I just don't seem to be getting any rest when I sleep. I am without rest. I am restless!
To whatever powers that be, please let this next week go well. Please let there be no more depression, good sales at work, no cranky spying customers who just want to get me into trouble because they have nothing better to do with their sorry lives, and no hard and strenuous work...
Please let me have a night where there's no phone ringing, no banging on the walls, no one to wake me, no bad dreams that make me wake up crying, no backache from sleeping too long, no punching or scratching myself in my sleep (it has been known to happen), no full bladder that gets gets mad and wakes me because it hasn't been emptied, and lastly, please, PLEASE let me have sweet dreams full of Figwit.
I just want to rest. Please... Sweet, peaceful, rejuvenating rest...
To whatever powers that be, please let this next week go well. Please let there be no more depression, good sales at work, no cranky spying customers who just want to get me into trouble because they have nothing better to do with their sorry lives, and no hard and strenuous work...
Please let me have a night where there's no phone ringing, no banging on the walls, no one to wake me, no bad dreams that make me wake up crying, no backache from sleeping too long, no punching or scratching myself in my sleep (it has been known to happen), no full bladder that gets gets mad and wakes me because it hasn't been emptied, and lastly, please, PLEASE let me have sweet dreams full of Figwit.
I just want to rest. Please... Sweet, peaceful, rejuvenating rest...
Wednesday, March 5, 2003
Cowabunga! A Blast from the Past!
Totally tubular! I just got downloads of the WHOLE Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles - Coming Out of Their Shells Tour songs!
I decided today that by some wild hair, that I would look them up. Lo' and behold, there they were on some dude's old website, just waiting for me to right click and save them all. Radical!!!
Why am I so excited about some weird songs sang by The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles? Because they are a part of my childhood! Time makes you lose so much, both physical and spiritual. And when I was little, we didn't have digital music ready at our fingertips. So when I get to recover and relive the things that made big impacts in my childhood, I get all happy and feel like I'm getting a piece of myself back that I had lost along the way. There's something about getting your childhood back that makes you feel... I don't know how to describe it, really. It's like a spiritual mending. I just cannot tell you guys in words how ecstatic I am right now!
So I know webpages get deleted over time, videos get taken down, and and links disappear, but I'll post these here in case anyone is interested. Here's the video in it's entirety, a Wikipedia link, and a the album on iTunes! X-D
Why am I so excited about some weird songs sang by The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles? Because they are a part of my childhood! Time makes you lose so much, both physical and spiritual. And when I was little, we didn't have digital music ready at our fingertips. So when I get to recover and relive the things that made big impacts in my childhood, I get all happy and feel like I'm getting a piece of myself back that I had lost along the way. There's something about getting your childhood back that makes you feel... I don't know how to describe it, really. It's like a spiritual mending. I just cannot tell you guys in words how ecstatic I am right now!
So I know webpages get deleted over time, videos get taken down, and and links disappear, but I'll post these here in case anyone is interested. Here's the video in it's entirety, a Wikipedia link, and a the album on iTunes! X-D
Tuesday, March 4, 2003
When Dreams Begin to Fade
I bought the Jekyll and Hyde DVD yesterday. (The one with David Hasselhoff.)
I like the original cast recording better, but at least with the DVD, I can see how the scenes are played out. As for the music quality? Ugh... *cringes* You have one woman who sings through her nose, and the other doesn't know that you're NOT supposed to overly pronounce the "r" in your singing.
Example: Beautiful Lucy character on the CD says: "I feel your fingers cold on my shoulder."
Stupid Lucy character on DVD says: "I feel youRRR fingeRRRs cold on my shouldeRRR."
It sounds harsh, but it honestly makes me want to barf.
Yes, I can admit that I truly believe I sing better than this woman. It boosted my ego to know that maybe I'd have a smidgen of a chance after all to one day be a Broadway star... So tonight at work, I was singing some of the songs from the musical, since I would LOVE to play Lucy's part the way it was meant to be played. Of course, I can't see when people are close to the kitchen, so a few people heard me and complimented me. Even more of an ego booster, right?
They asked if I do it for a profession, and why haven't I gone to college with it. I tell them the story about not having dropped out of school and not having a GED and all that... But I've always, ALWAYS wanted to be famous, especially on Broadway. (And by saying Broadway, I don't just mean that place specifically, I mean anywhere with a stage, a performance, and a live audience to act and sing for. It could be a small town concert for all I care, as long as I could live my dream of performing for everybody.)
Anyway., for some reason, this all makes me very sad. I guess I just fear that my dreams and hopes will never become a reality. Maybe I'm just worried about time... I have to get my license (I only have a permit so far) and then my GED, and even then, I have my job to think about. It's an excellent job... I don't want to lose it... I guess I just fear that I'll wait too long, and then when I finally have the chance, I'll be past my prime, or I won't be able to sing the same anymore. Maybe it's just not my fate...
Still, I would like to get a new microphone for my computer and work on my music. I just wish I had some time alone, or at least a soundproof room to work in. I feel like I'll never get any kind of demo CD made living in this situation with people living on either side of me, and there's not much I can do to change it at the moment. Ah, well... If it's meant to be, it'll be. If not, well then I can't say I didn't expect it to happen... :-/
current mood:
crushed
I like the original cast recording better, but at least with the DVD, I can see how the scenes are played out. As for the music quality? Ugh... *cringes* You have one woman who sings through her nose, and the other doesn't know that you're NOT supposed to overly pronounce the "r" in your singing.
Example: Beautiful Lucy character on the CD says: "I feel your fingers cold on my shoulder."
Stupid Lucy character on DVD says: "I feel youRRR fingeRRRs cold on my shouldeRRR."
It sounds harsh, but it honestly makes me want to barf.
Yes, I can admit that I truly believe I sing better than this woman. It boosted my ego to know that maybe I'd have a smidgen of a chance after all to one day be a Broadway star... So tonight at work, I was singing some of the songs from the musical, since I would LOVE to play Lucy's part the way it was meant to be played. Of course, I can't see when people are close to the kitchen, so a few people heard me and complimented me. Even more of an ego booster, right?
They asked if I do it for a profession, and why haven't I gone to college with it. I tell them the story about not having dropped out of school and not having a GED and all that... But I've always, ALWAYS wanted to be famous, especially on Broadway. (And by saying Broadway, I don't just mean that place specifically, I mean anywhere with a stage, a performance, and a live audience to act and sing for. It could be a small town concert for all I care, as long as I could live my dream of performing for everybody.)
Anyway., for some reason, this all makes me very sad. I guess I just fear that my dreams and hopes will never become a reality. Maybe I'm just worried about time... I have to get my license (I only have a permit so far) and then my GED, and even then, I have my job to think about. It's an excellent job... I don't want to lose it... I guess I just fear that I'll wait too long, and then when I finally have the chance, I'll be past my prime, or I won't be able to sing the same anymore. Maybe it's just not my fate...
Still, I would like to get a new microphone for my computer and work on my music. I just wish I had some time alone, or at least a soundproof room to work in. I feel like I'll never get any kind of demo CD made living in this situation with people living on either side of me, and there's not much I can do to change it at the moment. Ah, well... If it's meant to be, it'll be. If not, well then I can't say I didn't expect it to happen... :-/
current mood:
crushed
Sunday, March 2, 2003
I'm Going to Live With the Elves! (Dream)
I made a really nasty entry last night concerning family members and their gambling problems, but for the sake of keeping the peace in the house, I've decided to keep it private. As the Flight of the Conchords would say - 'Many spies have many eyes'. You know, they say freedom of speech is a thing, but I guess that doesn't count when you still live with your parents :-p
Anyway, I wanted to write down my dream. For some odd reason, we were all being evicted from our homes. My brother and his girlfriend lived with us, too, and in my dream, she was pregnant again. In real life, she had her baby about a month ago. When they started to pack and leave, my mom went with them, all of us traveling by foot, and I was going to follow behind with all our belongings, meeting up with them later on.
We were invited to live with the Elves in the Lorien woods. When I arrived, some very kind Elves said that they would take our things, and told me to that they had a gown I could wear since everyone was in the middle of a welcoming feast. As anyone should know, Elves love feasts and reasons to make a celebration. I strolled in and found my mom, brother, and his girlfriend all dressed up in garb of the same make.
We talked about things I could not remember, and then I decided to sit at the fountain and look around for my friend Stephanie. (The fountain was in the center of the room, and the room was actually the base of a great Mallorn tree, as you well know that the Lorien Elves live in their golden/silver trees.) When I finally asked and Elf if they knew where she was, suddenly, my dream looked as if it were zooming out. I saw the great forest from afar, and a handful of trees over, and waaaaaaaaay up near the top, the dream zoomed back in to focus on my friend Steph.
She was in a nest-like area, in between the top-most branches, but it was not made of straw. It was made of fabrics and flowers, and such sweet scents. To my surprise, she was making out with some Elf guy. (In my dream, I knew that it was her new boyfriend that she has in real life.) Well, that answered my question! lol! I knew where Steph was. Then someone came and interrupted them, and from this I woke, since my back was aching from sleeping too long.
current mood: amused
Anyway, I wanted to write down my dream. For some odd reason, we were all being evicted from our homes. My brother and his girlfriend lived with us, too, and in my dream, she was pregnant again. In real life, she had her baby about a month ago. When they started to pack and leave, my mom went with them, all of us traveling by foot, and I was going to follow behind with all our belongings, meeting up with them later on.
We were invited to live with the Elves in the Lorien woods. When I arrived, some very kind Elves said that they would take our things, and told me to that they had a gown I could wear since everyone was in the middle of a welcoming feast. As anyone should know, Elves love feasts and reasons to make a celebration. I strolled in and found my mom, brother, and his girlfriend all dressed up in garb of the same make.
We talked about things I could not remember, and then I decided to sit at the fountain and look around for my friend Stephanie. (The fountain was in the center of the room, and the room was actually the base of a great Mallorn tree, as you well know that the Lorien Elves live in their golden/silver trees.) When I finally asked and Elf if they knew where she was, suddenly, my dream looked as if it were zooming out. I saw the great forest from afar, and a handful of trees over, and waaaaaaaaay up near the top, the dream zoomed back in to focus on my friend Steph.
She was in a nest-like area, in between the top-most branches, but it was not made of straw. It was made of fabrics and flowers, and such sweet scents. To my surprise, she was making out with some Elf guy. (In my dream, I knew that it was her new boyfriend that she has in real life.) Well, that answered my question! lol! I knew where Steph was. Then someone came and interrupted them, and from this I woke, since my back was aching from sleeping too long.
current mood:
amused
Friday, February 28, 2003
More Ebay Stuff I Don't Need
Once again, I say - VILE ebay! Terrible, terrible ebay! (not really ebay, I love you, plz never leave me *petpet*)
Yes, I bid and won on two more items tonight. One is the theatrical version of LOTR. I already had the theatrical VHS tape and the 4-disk Extended Edition DVD, but the theatrical DVD had things on it that I don't get with the other two. Plus, I don't know if this is true or not, but I hear there's more Figwit in the widescreen version. *crosses fingers*
Secondly, I got the autograph of Erik Thomson, who plays Hades on the old Xena/Hercules shows. Besides all of that, I've been quite lazy today... How about yourselves? I should work on the X-Men RP I'm in, but I can't muster the brain-juice to do it with. Not at the current moment, anyhow. bleh... Need sleep!
current mood: sleepy
Yes, I bid and won on two more items tonight. One is the theatrical version of LOTR. I already had the theatrical VHS tape and the 4-disk Extended Edition DVD, but the theatrical DVD had things on it that I don't get with the other two. Plus, I don't know if this is true or not, but I hear there's more Figwit in the widescreen version. *crosses fingers*
Secondly, I got the autograph of Erik Thomson, who plays Hades on the old Xena/Hercules shows. Besides all of that, I've been quite lazy today... How about yourselves? I should work on the X-Men RP I'm in, but I can't muster the brain-juice to do it with. Not at the current moment, anyhow. bleh... Need sleep!
current mood:
sleepy
Thursday, February 27, 2003
The Life of a Lunch Lady
It's official... If this were the medieval days, I would be known as a bar wench. If we were all back in school, I would be your lunch lady. I've got dishpan hands like you wouldn't believe, my singing has become nothing but 'noise' to the customers, and my hairnet makes me look like someone you would call 'Dorris'. Things are always going to be this pathetic, aren't they?
Alright, so maybe it's worth it, since the money is so good, and my boss and her sister are pretty decent to work for, and the job is quite easy when the retarded second shift lady isn't always acting like such a moronic beauty queen. *rolls eyes at her.* *picks them up and rolls them again*
On the upside, because my hands are so horribly dry, I have a new excuse to use my Holiday Collection Bath & Body Works lotion. It's mainly for Christmas, since it has a slight scent of pine, but it feels so good on my hands and smells delightful, so I'm using it again. It's called Laurel Berry Garland. If you're ever in a Christmas-y mood, I would highly recommend it.
Also, might I note: Ebay is horrid. We hates it, preciousss... We curses it! But yet at the same time, I can't help but to be thankful that such a thing exists. Where else can you screw people over and get screwed at the same time, but be pleased about it? Don't answer that...
Why the conflict? I think I may be in the first stages of developing a nasty little 'bidding' habit. I've already sent off about $90 worth of money orders for objects I've won. It's horrible. I see something that only has a minute left that I feel I must have, and with a click of a button, it's mine! Most of the time, I'm wondering how I'll get the money for it, thinking that where there's a will, there's a way. Dangerous thing to get into. I don't want to leave it, though. There's so much there to get, that it's like having a birthday every other week! From Hercules videos just to have one episode in particular to see Hades, to an autographed Figwit card.
Anyway... That is all for now. I am getting pretty sleepy...
~ me ~
A.K.A... Dorris.
P.S. Weebles wobble... but they don't fall down.
Alright, so maybe it's worth it, since the money is so good, and my boss and her sister are pretty decent to work for, and the job is quite easy when the retarded second shift lady isn't always acting like such a moronic beauty queen. *rolls eyes at her.* *picks them up and rolls them again*
On the upside, because my hands are so horribly dry, I have a new excuse to use my Holiday Collection Bath & Body Works lotion. It's mainly for Christmas, since it has a slight scent of pine, but it feels so good on my hands and smells delightful, so I'm using it again. It's called Laurel Berry Garland. If you're ever in a Christmas-y mood, I would highly recommend it.
Also, might I note: Ebay is horrid. We hates it, preciousss... We curses it! But yet at the same time, I can't help but to be thankful that such a thing exists. Where else can you screw people over and get screwed at the same time, but be pleased about it? Don't answer that...
Why the conflict? I think I may be in the first stages of developing a nasty little 'bidding' habit. I've already sent off about $90 worth of money orders for objects I've won. It's horrible. I see something that only has a minute left that I feel I must have, and with a click of a button, it's mine! Most of the time, I'm wondering how I'll get the money for it, thinking that where there's a will, there's a way. Dangerous thing to get into. I don't want to leave it, though. There's so much there to get, that it's like having a birthday every other week! From Hercules videos just to have one episode in particular to see Hades, to an autographed Figwit card.
Anyway... That is all for now. I am getting pretty sleepy...
~ me ~
A.K.A... Dorris.
P.S. Weebles wobble... but they don't fall down.
Sunday, February 23, 2003
My Elfwood Gallery
Groovy. I have an Elfwood gallery, now...
http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/loth/s/i/simmons3/simmons3.html
It's not much, and some really low quality pictures are on there. I was only trying to get it started... Anyway, thar it be! I hope to get something actually decent on there later on. Actually, I personally love my two Figwit pictures because they mean something to ME, but other than that, the morning glory and sorceress lady pics are bad quality... I don't know... They were good at the time when I made them back in the day, but now days? I've seen SO much better art out there in the land of the internet! I feel unworthy sometimes... lol
Current Mood:
sleepyCurrent Music: Is Your Love Strong Enough - Tangerine Dream
Sunday, February 16, 2003
I'm a Hobbit!
Check it out! I'm a Hobbit! (click to enlarge)
I use myself on a LOTR RP, and I fixed myself up to look like a guy, calling myself Hob Boffins. Cute, ain't it? lol I even have the hairy feet! This is how I looked when I went to see The Two Towers movie with my bestest friend Tahnee! These aren't pictures from that night, but I did the costume AGAIN so I could get pictures and show you guys!
current mood:
amused
current music: Come What May - Moulin Rouge
current mood:
amusedcurrent music: Come What May - Moulin Rouge
Saturday, February 15, 2003
Someone Was Shot Next Door
I haven't written in forever! Well, technically, it's been shorter than forever, but still... Quite a long time, I must say... The reason why is simple, really. Life takes over, you know? I'm still quite thrilled about my new baby niece! But when good things happen, bad things often happen as well...
Just last night, there was a shooting in the apartment right next to me. I was lucky I wasn't in my room that late at night, because the room it happened in was just a wall across from mine, my bed right up against it. All I heard was what sounded like a slamming up against the wall, obviously from the shot, I imagine. Then a lot of footsteps hurtled down the stairs. What got my attention was outside when I kept hearing a kid saying "oh my god" so I cracked open the window to listen. They mentioned something about getting shot and suicide. Anyway, the police came soon after and it was confirmed that it was a self-inflicted wound made by a shotgun.
I was irritated at the time, though, because I had to be bothered by writing a police report about what I heard. I was in the middle of doing a RP post, and by the time I got back on, my online friend Steph had left. Now that I look back on it, though, we're lucky the bullet didn't come through the wall or anything!
Anyway, the only other thing I know about it is that it wasn't one of the morons who actually live in the apartment next to us. It was one of the other teenagers that hang around their place, apparently. If you can't tell, I'm not very fond of the neighbors anyway. I don't like to use the term "white trash", but I'm just saying... You know? They're very loud, obnoxious, and have no respect for their neighbors. I'll just leave it at that.
Current Mood:
irate
Current Music: Gollum's Song from the Lord of the Rings TTT Soundtrack
Just last night, there was a shooting in the apartment right next to me. I was lucky I wasn't in my room that late at night, because the room it happened in was just a wall across from mine, my bed right up against it. All I heard was what sounded like a slamming up against the wall, obviously from the shot, I imagine. Then a lot of footsteps hurtled down the stairs. What got my attention was outside when I kept hearing a kid saying "oh my god" so I cracked open the window to listen. They mentioned something about getting shot and suicide. Anyway, the police came soon after and it was confirmed that it was a self-inflicted wound made by a shotgun.
I was irritated at the time, though, because I had to be bothered by writing a police report about what I heard. I was in the middle of doing a RP post, and by the time I got back on, my online friend Steph had left. Now that I look back on it, though, we're lucky the bullet didn't come through the wall or anything!
Anyway, the only other thing I know about it is that it wasn't one of the morons who actually live in the apartment next to us. It was one of the other teenagers that hang around their place, apparently. If you can't tell, I'm not very fond of the neighbors anyway. I don't like to use the term "white trash", but I'm just saying... You know? They're very loud, obnoxious, and have no respect for their neighbors. I'll just leave it at that.
Current Mood:
irateCurrent Music: Gollum's Song from the Lord of the Rings TTT Soundtrack
Sunday, February 9, 2003
I'm An Aunt!
(Note: This is a previous journal entry made a long time ago, when I used to use DeadJournal as my main social journal writing place.)
My brother had a baby yesterday! Well not HIM exactly, but he and his girlfriend did. If HE had the baby, we would be rich! lol We traveled back to my hometown of Perryville for the birth of my niece, Jolie Nicole Simmons. I'm an Aunt! This is SO exciting! And it was so cold! And there was no heat in the van! But it was an amazing experience, and she is SUCH a beautiful girl!
The plan was for her to be delivered normally, but after pushing for about an hour, she was stuck, and just couldn't come through the birth canal, so Jeanne had to have a cesarean section. We weren't in the delivery room, of course. Here's a picture of my mom and my bother Tommy, and one of my brother's friends. My brother is ALWAYS acting silly! lol (Just click to enlarge.)
Jeanne's brother Damien also showed up with his girlfriend Samantha, who is also one of my bestest friends.
I was able to get a few more pictures of Jolie up close and personal. Isn't she such an angel?
Jeanne's bestest friend Rachel was there, too. I'm not very fond of Rachel, but I got a picture for them to have of her holding Jolie anyway... I'm just sad that I didn't think to get one of my mom, my brother, of me, or even Jeanne holding her!
Current Mood:
jubilant
Current Music: Gollum's Song from the Lord of the Rings TTT Soundtrack
Saturday, February 8th, 2003
My brother had a baby yesterday! Well not HIM exactly, but he and his girlfriend did. If HE had the baby, we would be rich! lol We traveled back to my hometown of Perryville for the birth of my niece, Jolie Nicole Simmons. I'm an Aunt! This is SO exciting! And it was so cold! And there was no heat in the van! But it was an amazing experience, and she is SUCH a beautiful girl!
The plan was for her to be delivered normally, but after pushing for about an hour, she was stuck, and just couldn't come through the birth canal, so Jeanne had to have a cesarean section. We weren't in the delivery room, of course. Here's a picture of my mom and my bother Tommy, and one of my brother's friends. My brother is ALWAYS acting silly! lol (Just click to enlarge.)
Jeanne's brother Damien also showed up with his girlfriend Samantha, who is also one of my bestest friends.
Anyway, once Jolie was finally born, they sent us to another room so they could bring in the baby while they took care of Jeanne. My brother came in, shaking like a leaf, his voice trembling, and said "Grandma, say hello to your grandson." We were all SHOCKED! And to our surprise, he said "Just kidding, it's a girl!" Like I said, he is ALWAYS acting silly :-D He was even able to joke at a time like that :-)
When Jeanne was fixed up, I checked in on her and snapped a quick pick of her sleeping, but strangely enough, she sleeps with her eyes open! lol
After we got to see Jolie, they took her to the baby area to do all of the standard newborn stuff... I got more pictures there of my brother with her. He's such a proud daddy!
It was hard to get any decent pictures because one, my camera is low quality, and two, I was having to take pictures behind the glass window. Only he was allowed into the actual room. But here's the first picture I got of my beautiful niece! If her eyes look goopy, it's because of the stuff they put in babys' eyes after they are born. The only sad thing is that because she was in the birth canal for so long, she was born with a sort of "cone head", but the doctors say that in a month or so, it should shape back to normal, and she'll have a regular round head again :-)
Finally, Jeanne woke up and they took the baby into the room, and we got to visit with the new momma.
Jeanne's bestest friend Rachel was there, too. I'm not very fond of Rachel, but I got a picture for them to have of her holding Jolie anyway... I'm just sad that I didn't think to get one of my mom, my brother, of me, or even Jeanne holding her!
They have the nursery all set up, too! I got pictures of it while I was at the house. Their theme is Peter Rabbit :-D (Not my theme of choice but it IS pretty cute!)
Current Mood:
jubilantCurrent Music: Gollum's Song from the Lord of the Rings TTT Soundtrack
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