"A completely different version of you exists in the minds of everyone you meet." That's something deep to think about. While I know this is basically saying that people will form their own opinions about you and assume they know you, that's just THEIR version of who you are and not who you really feel you are, it got me thinking about something a little bit same, but a little bit different.
It got me thinking about how we are all alternate reality versions of ourselves. Somewhere down the line, we all began as one singular being. Then came all of the "what if's". What if I had been born a boy? What if I had been born to a Mexican family? What if I had been born with blonde hair? What if my nose was bigger? What if I was taller? What if I had been born 10 years later? All of these what-if's create innumerable possibilities, and unfathomable alternate realities.
So wouldn't it stand to reason that maybe we are all just alternate reality versions of ourselves living together in this world? What if throughout all time, all of history and past the future... what if we were all just combinations of different ways that we could have existed? And that's why we're all human, and we can relate on that basic level, but yet we're all different. Is this what it is like to feel the connection of humanity? Feel free to share your thoughts with me <3
I still think this is one of the sexiest songs. It came up on my old playlist today, and every time I hear it, I think - yeah, baby! Come on Jordan Knight, go on and give it to me! X-D lol
Just check out these lyrics though...
You say its been too long since you had some. You say I turn you on like a fire that's burning inside. You think that I'm the one you see in your dreams. I know what you mean, yeah.
It's creepin around in your head, me holding you down in my bed. You don't have to say a word. I'm convinced you want this.
Baby you know I can give it to you. I can't deny you do it right. Just let me know and I'll give it to you. Just show me where, I'll take you there. Baby you know that I'll give it to you. Your body needs a man like me. Anything goes when I give it to you. You know without a doubt, I'll turn you out. I'll give it to you The feeling is fine, giving you everything of mine.
I'm the place to be, and soon, you'll see. I don't care who leads, as long as we move horizontally. Anyone can make you sweat, but I, can keep you wet.
It's creepin around in your head, me holding you down in my bed. I can't wait to give you some. I'm convinced you need it
Baby you know I can give it to you. I can't deny you do it right. Just let me know and I'll give it to you. Just show me where, I'll take you there. Baby you know that I'll give it to you. Your body needs a man like me. Anything goes when I give it to you. You know without a doubt, I'll turn you out. I'll give it to you The feeling is fine, giving you everything of mine
It's creepin' around in my head, me holding you down in my bed. You don't have to say a word. Just relax. I'll do the work. I can't wait to give you some. I'm convinced you need one.
Baby you know I can give it to you. I can't deny you do it right. Just let me know and I'll give it to you. Just show me where, I'll take you there. Baby you know that I'll give it to you. Your body needs a man like me. Anything goes when I give it to you. You know without a doubt, I'll turn you out. I'll give it to you The feeling is fine, giving you everything of mine.
I want to satisfy your every wish and mine, baby. I know just what you need, (you need) to get you off. No one could ever do you like I do you right, baby. There's nothing we can't do. The feeling is fine, giving you everything of mine.
All the highlighted parts are the ones I like themost ;-) I mean, seriously... It's a sexy song. Or maybe I'm just thirsty? LOL! X-D You can also hear the song here, if it's still up by the time you see this:
omgggggg These guys work magic! I just saw them paint with the musou black paint (one of the darkest black paints ever) and the hypershift... I don't know if it's serotonin, dopamine, or oxytocin that I'm feeling, but damn! I couldn't look away! If you can see this video, give it a look! I usually don't share other people's videos here, but this is glorious!
It's been a while... I know I only uploaded one video last year, but that doesn't mean I wasn't filming the things that have been going on in our lives. I'm also a day late in saying this due to technical difficulties in getting the software I needed, but... vlogs will be returning soon!!!
Am I missing something??? I just never understood it... What's the purpose of having two sinks in the bathroom, especially right next to each other??? Obviously they say "his and hers", but why? Why can't they use the same sink? Seven of us live here, and we can all share the same sink. Hell, there's seven of us and well all share one bathroom! But even if I was rich, I can't see the point in having two sinks in one bathroom... Are they just looking for something to fill all the space they have? I guess this is one of the great mysteries of a genuinely poor person X-D lol
Some girl's post showed up on my Twitter feed today. Someone I don't even know, but she is a gamer or something, idk. But because she's popular, she has fans, and with fans also come the trolls and obsessive simp boys.
When someone is obsessed, they will often try to get their target's attention by gaslighting, or giving a backhanded compliment. This is where they offer a compliment and follow it up by an insult. I forgot what he said, and the post has been deleted since then, but it was something along the lines of "You're so pretty, but too bad you suck at gaming" What they are expecting is for the target to take the bait and give them attention. Really guys? You think we don't know what you're up to? Do you really think she's that dumb? You're not that slick, boy.
I can't STAND when people do that! It's one of my pet peeves. It's like if someone were to tell me, "You're a good Mom but too bad you aren't more organized". Or how about "You're so creative but you can't really draw that well." (not me though lol) "You're a good cook, but I always have to add salt to your food." (not me either! lol I think I actually use too much salt!) There's always a "but" with these. If you're going to compliment someone and feel the need to add a "but" to the end of that compliment, then you just need to "butt" out and not say anything at all. Just leave it as a compliment. You really think that girl's going to be interested in you for insulting her? Maybe a girl who is desperate for attention, and who wants someone like that?
And it isn't just always guys doing this to girls. Girls just tend to be more vulnerable to it because a lonely girl looking for attention will usually take the bait, even if it's bad attention... So I'm addressing you all when I say - Kids: Learn to recognize this kind of toxic behavior and don't take it from anybody when they try to use it as a weapon against you. Don't get caught in their trap. You deserve to be treated better than that. And it's not just obsessive fans who will try to reach out and snare you. It can be your parents, people you think are your friends, anybody. If someone tries to get your interest by complimenting and then insulting you, what's going to stop them from insulting you when times get rough? When they REALLY mean it... If that jealous friend plays down something you are good at by following their compliment up with an insult, what makes you think they're going to be happy for you when you become even more successful and not them? If your parents can't give you a compliment without constantly nagging, then can they really expect you to want them around when you're older?
Anyway, that's my rant. Her user profile is now deleted since I had seen the post she shared, so I hope she's okay. Hopefully she just blocked and ignored the person, but as trolls will do, I'm sure he became bitter that she didn't give in, and he probably started harassing her. If so, it's sad that she had to close out her account just to avoid him. He obviously would have bullied her into doing that, but you should never allow someone to pressure you into feeling like you have to do something on their behalf... RedCanary16, if you're reading this, I hope you're okay <3
In 2020, I cooked a LOT more, and cooked good! Especially when Adam had to have a salt-free diet for his recovery. (He's still supposed to eat salt-free, but it's not as severe now.) Something new I learned how to make was "Sky, surf, and turf", a dish I thought was tasty when Tric and I had gone out to eat at my diabetes education class. It's made with chicken, shrimp, steak, queso, and spices. It's sooooo good! It was originally a dip, but I had eaten it as a soup and so I modified the recipe when I got home to add potatoes to it as well. We have it at least once a month, and that's our first dinner that we've had for this New Year's day!
It's really easy to make, if you're interested. This recipe feeds 7 lol:
1 pack of steak, cubed
1 pack of boneless, skinless chicken breast, cubed
1 pack of cooked shrimp, tails off
1 jar of queso dip
1 stick of queso
1 bag of shredded parmesan cheese
The herbs are added to taste, depending on how salty or hot you like your spices. I usually add just a dash of each:
salt
pepper
onion powder
ground red pepper
smoked paprika
cumin
chili powder
Cook the steak, chicken, and potatoes with the herbs. Add the shrimp and all the cheeses, including the queso dip. Once the cheese is melted and everything is hot, it's time to serve! ^_^
Other than being New Year's Eve and Jazmin losing a tooth yesterday, we got some exciting news! Adam got a phone call from the SSM Health Transplant Services center in St. Louis today, and they told him that it's looking good for him to be put onto a kidney transplant list! The process has begun! So in order to get it, he will have to have all of his dental work done, he will need to take a few classes, and have a lot of testing done, like the treadmill/heart test. It's going to take some time and they are small steps, but at least they are steps in the right direction!
It looks like Jazmin is getting an extra special New Year's after she gets visited by the tooth fairy tonight! One of her front teeth were veeeeery wiggly, so she went to Grandma's house (the pro) to have it pulled. I'm not very good at pulling teeth because I freak out myself, and end up doing a terrible job... Adam's fingers are too big to get in there and get a hold of it, so he couldn't do it either. But I remember how my Mom was always so good at it when I was growing up, and how she has done the other kids' teeth before as well. Mom said she felt really bad doing it because it wasn't really ready to come out yet, but I still think she did a great job. Of course it's going to hurt, it's a tooth being pulled out! But I think if anything, it's always the mental pain that hurts the worst. Then it happens, and you're like - wow, I got all worked up for nothing! It's not like she's going to remember it anyway. Here are the before and after pics. You can see how loose it is in the first picture by how crooked it had become:
And then here's the picture my Mom took of her while she was still over at her house:
I have to admit, it's giving my eyes a good workout at how much I'm rolling them by the way people keep talking about 2020 being over, as if a new number is going to change anything. Just because the number is changing - it's not going to change the way our world is! It's still a dangerous place. Politics are still shitty. People are still assholes. Problems still exist. Just because the calendar rolls over, that doesn't mean it's a clean slate. But what we CAN do about this new year is try to make it better than the last. Be better as humankind. Try to do better to the world. Our lives are what we make of them, so make 2021 the best year that you can, because let's face it - you never know when it's going to be your last. It hasn't changed, but you can change it.
